Beginning to come to terms with hebephilia

First, let me say that I am very grateful for this board, especially the non-condemning attitude and the realistic, informative replies, as well as the opportunity to just come clean and get some tips on how to deal with these issues.

I am firstly looking for some general advice, instead of just writing up a long and detailed post to begin with (also it's a bit early in the morning here, so I'm not quite awake yet).

I'm 34, and have recently matured a little bit more - as in focusing on ethics as a fundament in life - and therefore I wish to handle the issue of being attracted to young girls.
My assumption is that if I don't handle this issue, then I won't be able to ever form relationships with women, and I recognize that this is mentally unhealthy, and dangerous, over time.

Also I can't really come to any trustworthy conclusions about this on my own, because I recognize in myself that I'm not quite certain or fully honest about it. For example, in spite of having written hebephilia, this is at least more ephebophilia, and although I don't want to say pedophilia, that's what recurs in my dreams and fantasies.

So far I have been in contact with the head psychiatrist at the local hospital, who recommended that I contact a sexologist, which I have done.
I'm afraid of receiving bad advice though, so if you guys have any pointers to information that I could read up on by myself, I would appreciate that.

Mentally, I have so far gotten to understanding at least these points:
* Rationalizing or "justifying" the actions in such thoughts is pretty much the dumbest you can do
* Young people aren't really looking for the things that adults are, and aren't mature enough to handle them
* Blaming yourself is not healthy
* Obsessing over such thoughts, as focusing too much on every detail about them or how they are bad, isn't healthy

Hi, mxy! Your therapist should be able to help you figure out why you feel attracted to young girls and help you keep the urges/desires under control, maybe even to the point where they won't be a huge part of your life. I'm not sure how likely that is to happen, though, and keep in mind that no one here is a professional psych.
Yep, I think you're right, you shouldn't try to rationalize or justify these thoughts and kids definitely don't want the same things adults do and they're not mature enough to handle certain things. Getting help is much healthier than blaming yourself over and over again or obsessing over the thoughts. I hope it works out for you!

Thank you.

So far it's going a-okay, I guess.
I started what I would call stop-think this Monday, and since then, every time I got any variant of such thoughts, I simply ignored it as quickly and quietly as possible. Now, it's already become easier and more of a habit.

Having felt as bad as I have about this though, has had its upside as it instantly weaned me off drinking, smoking, and masturbating. On the downside I have had maybe two hours of sleep each night, on average.

One might wonder why I hadn't realized the ethical implications of such thoughts and feelings before, but well, I guess the mind protects itself in ignorance rather than face damnation.
I'll get by, even though it hurts pretty bad to face this issue, because I can see that there will be a way to deal with it.

Thank you again for your concern, and this little part of the site.

You're not immoral or bad for having certain urges as long as you accept responsibility for them by getting good treatment. It's not your fault for feeling the way you do, it would just have really, really bad consequences if you were to act on your feelings.
Please feel free to post here as much as you life, our little part of the site is open for you

Thank you for your kind words.

For what it is worth, I actually managed to have a normal night's sleep last night.

EDIT: "Normal", as in the amount of hours slept... say seven or eight as opposed to one or two... anyway.

You're welcome! Congratulations