preteen models

Hi my name is drf0rk i am 18 years old.
For the past 3 - 4 years I have been intrested in younger females it started with incest and young lesbian erotic stories. Then it went on to these "preteen modelling" sites which have had me addicted untill this point i have downloaded thousands upon thousands of "sets" and have hundreds of differnt models hidden deep on an external hardrive i have dreams of these girls and one girl i started to become attracted to her even though ive never met her. I dont have it in me to ever act upon anything all my fantasys are in my head this is the first time openly spoke about this and its a little scary. My ex gf once stumbled upon a folder but she has never told anyone to my knowledge and then recently one of my friends found a half downloaded picture in my recycle bin but hes keeping it safe. what i want to know is there anyone else out there who enjoyed the same things and what does the child model fiasco lebel me as ive always condemned myself with the Pedo term its been my most deepest darkest secret. what do the dreams mean? How does child modeling affect the "pedos" general actions?
Thankyou for reading please help me

Technically, if you're sexually attracted to prepubescent children, and you either act on or are distressed by it, then you're a pedophile. I remember in school I had a skimpy photo of a preteen boy as the wallpaper on my school computer, lol!

Well pre pubescant doesnt quite describe the age groups of girls i have they range from maybe 13 - 17 ephedophilia ( orwhateveritis) is how i described it. I used to get sent these images of actual nude girls from underground modeling sites and they never did it for me and that eased my worries a little but i would never ever act on my intrests. So if my intrest ranges from 13 to 17 that makes me a ephedophile doesnt it? i dont get off at girls too young i think the youngest was 12 whatever. Its feels soo odd talking about this stuff its been locked away in my deepest darkest areas for soo long i want some real good feed back on this i need to talk this all thorugh with someone that isint sitting right in front of me if im ever goign to curb this habit

Yeah, that's ephebophilia/hebephilia, and it's currently not considered a psychiatric disorder (and if you're only 18, you're not talking about much of an age difference). I think any honest straight man would admit to being aroused by teenage girls, I mean, they do have very prominent secondary sexual characteristics that men are biologically programmed to find arousing, it's just that most men would be too embarrassed to admit it, because it's not considered a socially acceptable thing to admit to, and teenage girls are psychologically immature (even the ones that lie about their age and get men put in prison).

Yeh ive always justified myself with that name. But i still feel like a sexual monster its like im addicted to these images but at the same time i feel a sense of "A collection" if you catch my meaning. But all this still makes me paranoid everyday when ever i leave the house i feel as iof the cops are going to bust into my home and raid my computer and because i use torrents to get alot of the sets i feel like they are watching me. But when i sit back and think about it im not looking at hardcore child porn like some people do my temptation is very softcore and even then the pictures have next to nothing sexually suggestive in them they are just beautiful girls and im 18 soo i think of it as having pictures of girls in my age group kinda like photos of girlfriends which would explain some of the emotional attraction i ahve towards some of them.

Onlysleep and Wolfparade: Im thinking of you guys, just want you to know that. All the important questions you ask wont be ignored forever. The way paedophilia is dealt with reveals a bizarre human emotion that sex, unless they're involved, is disgusting. Paedophile or not, the ones that do care have a built-in program that helps us identify harm; when a person looks distressed, in pain, upset or sad. This is why there are so many guys out there, with this label of paedophile, that are so unfairly miss-judged. That, is an act of inhumanity, and we will win hearts and minds in the future. There will be a more levelled approach when the hysterical screaming stops, and the civilized debate starts. This will have to happen. Think about writing your words to others though. Mental health profession, your health system, politicians you may have respect for. You're talking sense and you will be helping ease the suffering of many adults to be. Child sexuality is inadvertantly becoming criminalized. Who could call that "caring"? There will be a change in the tide soon.

So many people i spoken to on line, say to me: "I didnt know that, i thought this. You have made me think. Why did i think that paedophile only described a child abuser, when acutally, it also describes the attraction too?" There's your discrimination, but its only ignorance. Keep spreading the word, but look after yourselves in the process. Peace!

I like looking at images of teenage girls too and I don't know why. I wish I could stop. The weird thing is I'm a girl and everyone on this forum seems to be male.

Then you would make the perfect girlfriend for me then lol. That is is odd i have never heard of it before

That doesn't make sense. Why would you want a girlfriend that likes girls. Obviously she would not like you as you are not a girl... lol

anyway, is it really that odd? ugh, maybe it is. :/

Hhehehe i know it was more a joke than seriousness my friend.
And the odd thing i found was a girl that alsmo liked preteen models. I spend alot of time on image trading forums and i have never came across one chick, So ya know kinda takes me by surprise.
Now anyone with input on my situation? any helpful tips or anything?