Necropedophilia Coping

I recently made a doll that's life sized somewhat, I made it to match a child's corpse. I have a problem with an attraction to dead children, I need something to project emotions and love onto but without hurting anyone so I made a doll. I want to make more and put them in every room, have company somewhat.

Is this okay to do? I don't know how to cope with this. I have a weird attraction to mutilation, it's not about sex it's more of death itself. I don't know why but autopsies mainly of children and things...I like it. I would never hurt a child. Ever.

The part I find problematic is "and put them in every room." I think everything else you describe is OK. You're not targeting a specific child in what you create. [I assume?] No one's harmed. Adults have varying degrees of attachment to dolls and stuffed toys. None of that is wrong although it can be thought "weird." By people who don't experience the same attachment.

But having dolls in every room seems to me to be over objectifying them. This is hard to describe and is just my gut reaction. So of course still up to you. It feels to me somehow like they don't have "full personalities." Like you wouldn't want to move them around with you where you go. They wait passively for you to enter the room. They'd seem to me more like furniture than company.

I don't know if this makes sense from a necrophiliac point of view. I very likely am missing much of the feelings and intent since that isn't my sexual background. There's perhaps a different approach to presence for people / dolls that can't move themselves.

Yeah I agree with Ada, it seems a bit strange to have dolls for every room. Why not just one partner?

Blonde today, Asian tomorrow. Normatives get variety, why can't we?

I quite envy people who can be attracted to dolls.

A lot of people assume necrophilia is a similar thing, but it isn't. Not for me anyway. I like human beings, and I'd have to really immerse myself in fantasy to get off with an imitation of one, no matter how realistic it was.

I don't see any problem in what you're doing, Vorsk, but I agree with Countess and Ada. Surely having one special 'partner' doll would be more meaningful to you than spreading your affections thinly across lots of them?

Thanks you guys for replying!

I've noticed that I daydream a lot and usually live in my own world which involves a lot of necrosadism. It's nothing I'd ever actually do. There was/is a period of necrophilia but it's gone beyond loving a corpse to finding death itself attractive. Like, I have thoughts that involve mutilation and ones that a normal person would have, I find them both satisfying.

Would it only be bad if the thoughts became overwhelming? Or is having the thoughts fill my day bad itself? I don't feel consumed by it I like it.

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I "dismembered" the doll. I've had ones with heads, feet, hands, etc. but I removed them. I feel like with heads and faces they're judging me. With necrophilia, for me, there isn't the feeling of being judged by a living person. Same with the hands, feet, and head, I removed them to make me feel comfortable.

It's gone now. The furniture thing makes sense, I would rather have something to project emotions onto but not worry about their emotions since I'm bad at socializing, expressing myself, etc.

Why don't you use the one doll for now, and see if you're going to build that "relationship" with the doll before making a doll for every room? Like meeting new people, you can't become attached to so many all at once.
However, I would discourage you from making so many that resemble real humans too closely. Sounds to me like that wouldn't be technically "coping" for normality. Having too many humanoids could go the opposite way and actually encourage you to become demented.

-- Mon Dec 07, 2015 6:58 pm --

Why don't you use the one doll for now, and see if you're going to build that "relationship" with the doll before making a doll for every room? Like meeting new people, you can't become attached to so many all at once.
However, I would discourage you from making so many that resemble real humans too closely. Sounds to me like that wouldn't be technically "coping" for normality. Having too many humanoids could go the opposite way and actually encourage you to become demented.