I got the strangest erection and am now seriously concerned.

I am 20 years old, a couple months back I was at my sister's place and my 1-year old niece all of the sudden jumps out of her room with her top half-way up, uncontrollably and frighteningly I felt a slight erection for a brief few seconds before it subsided. From then on I've been pretty upset and disgusted with myself, I know for sure that I am definitely not that perverted and sick, I am confident that I am not a pedophile and I'd rather castrate myself or kill myself than to be so sexually inappropriate; I've told a few friends and they tried to reassure me that I should stop worrying too much about it, encouraging but I feel that I should reassure myself fully by asking some experts. I love my niece! I believe I'm a good uncle, I'll destroy anyone who dares to harm her (even if it's myself).

Again! I am fully aware that I am only attracted to matured women with moderately large breasts and slim bodies, I have massive crushes on a couple of Asian girls I went to school with and I have pretty strong feelings for a half-Asian girl I've recently met. In my 20 years of life I have never experienced such an arousal like that looking at a child, it's not me! yet I still feel ashamed. Maybe I do suffer from obsessive-compulsive disorder, it's usually pretty difficult for me to move on from past mistakes and trauma, am I overthinking this? should I be arrested, I'm still worried about how bad a person I could potentially become.

I don't think you're a paedophile. I can't explain what happened in that situation but you aren't attracted to other children and this was only one event so I would try not to worry about it. Even if you were a paedophile you don't suddenly become a monster without a conscience or self control. You wouldn't harm anyone if you didn't want to and you wouldn't need to turn yourself into the police. Considering you're thinking about such extremes over that one event, perhaps this is ocd related too.

By the way, TPP wouldn't happen to stand for The Phantom Pain, would it?

TPPRULES95 wrote:I know for sure that I am definitely not that perverted and sick

Yet again, you are requesting help from "perverted and sick" people.

TPPRULES95 wrote:I am confident that I am not a pedophile and I'd rather castrate myself or kill myself

Is that so? Then you should gtfo of this forum.

you felt a brief erection for a few seconds? you certainly aren't a pedophile if anything like that happens to give you an erection as a pedophile i would assume it lasts longer than that and then you remember the event and fantasize about it. if you don't have a desire to fantasize about your niece even a little then i don't think you are a pedophile(althogh i wouldn't want to fantasize about my own niece thats just me though(yes im a pedophile)).

even if you are a pedophile you dont suddenly transform into a different person and want to rape and pillage everything in sight lol. you are just you and one peice of you includes being atracted to children.

but seriously stop worrying you aint a pedo.

Obsessing about this is the worst thing you can do for and to yourself. "Should I be arrested?" Cripes, for what, dude?

It sounds to me like an advent of something called an "Intrusive Thought"; unwelcome, unwanted thoughts that are actually very common in human psychology. People without anxiety disorders easily recognize them for what they are and simply dismiss them. People who have anxiety disorders, however, this is not so easily done.

For one moment in your life you experienced some weird firings of neurons resulting in an unwanted physiological response, completely out of your control. This incident, being so isolated, is only evidence of the complexities of human psychology and neurology and this incident, being so isolated, certainly is not evidence that you are a threat to her, or anyone else. Give yourself a break and stop obsessing on it; if you do not cease obsessing on it, this will cause you problems in and of itself.

TPPRULES95 wrote:I am definitely not that perverted and sick, I am confident that I am not a pedophile and I'd rather castrate myself or kill myself than to be so sexually inappropriate

Yet again, you are literally begging perverted and sick people for mentally support, because you are too weak to handle guilt.

TPPRULES95 wrote:I love my niece! I believe I'm a good uncle, I'll destroy anyone who dares to harm her (even if it's myself).

I had to think for a while till I got what you were intending to say with that. You are right, maybe you should just destroy yourself, I highly doubt anybody will miss you for some reason.

Acquirai wrote:

TPPRULES95 wrote:I am definitely not that perverted and sick, I am confident that I am not a pedophile and I'd rather castrate myself or kill myself than to be so sexually inappropriate

Yet again, you are literally begging perverted and sick people for mentally support, because you are too weak to handle guilt.

TPPRULES95 wrote:I love my niece! I believe I'm a good uncle, I'll destroy anyone who dares to harm her (even if it's myself).

I had to think for a while till I got what you were intending to say with that. You are right, maybe you should just destroy yourself, I highly doubt anybody will miss you for some reason.

Notice how other people-some paedophiles themselves-overlooked the wording and responded in a supportive way? This is a support forum. Don't tell people to kill themselves because they called you bad words.

From then on I've been pretty upset and disgusted with myself, I know for sure that I am definitely not that perverted and sick, I am confident that I am not a pedophile and I'd rather castrate myself or kill myself than to be so sexually inappropriate;

Seems a lot like a troll post to me.

I don't think this is a troll post. I don't think the OP was intentionally trying to insult any paedophiles on this forum. They are clearly distressed by their situation so they may simply be expressing their thoughts without considering how other people might take it personally.

Acquirai wrote:

TPPRULES95 wrote:I am definitely not that perverted and sick, I am confident that I am not a pedophile and I'd rather castrate myself or kill myself than to be so sexually inappropriate

Yet again, you are literally begging perverted and sick people for mentally support, because you are too weak to handle guilt.

TPPRULES95 wrote:I love my niece! I believe I'm a good uncle, I'll destroy anyone who dares to harm her (even if it's myself).

I had to think for a while till I got what you were intending to say with that. You are right, maybe you should just destroy yourself, I highly doubt anybody will miss you for some reason.

You assume too much.

First, you assume that this is a troll post. Maybe it is. Maybe it is not. We have no way of knowing. We only have means to "believe" one way or another. "Believing" is not "knowing". As this is a support forum, I feel it is more appropriate to proceed with a presumption of validity to the OP until further evidence presents itself to support the allegation that this is someone trolling. That is what I am doing. I do not know if this is a "troll post" or not. For the moment, I do not care. I proceed with the presumption of sincerity and error on the side of caution.

Second, you assume that the OP, regardless of sincerity, has any knowledge, experience or contact with pedophiles outside of what is force fed to the public by alarmists, society in general and the mainstream media. If there has been no other association, awareness or education regarding pedophiles outside of "Law & Order: SVU", then the poster has no information or knowledge to dispel myths about pedophiles, thus no reason to believe that pedophiles are anything other than described. If that is the case, then these adamant words are not only unsurprising, but also expected. And all things considered: Quite tame compared to what's out there.