Florian boy 'model'

Yeast ago, the boy-lovers went crazy nuts for this boy Florian, as far as I know he was only ever pictured at worst in underwear. But the boy-lovers collected such things, and our culture now says those pictures were sick wicked evil child abuse.

Any of the boy-lovers know what became of him? He's surely a suicidal crack head bum in an asylum by now?

Should he be doing more for me? I find his body attractive but his face in only one image after a quick Google image browse. I feel like my attractions are at odds with how I think I should feel. I can be attracted to a boy but once he starts making poses like that and wearing only underwear it makes me feel uncomfortable. I feel repulsed. I don't think I could have a relationship with a boy even if I wanted to. The thought of intimacy with a boy doesn't sit right with me. I enjoy the sexual thoughts but the thoughts of the acts of affection surrounding that make me feel uneasy. I don't know if that is the societal norms influencing me, homophobia or repression of homosexuality. I'm very sorry that this was not on topic I really felt like venting. This is a support forum so I am allowed to do that, right?

He is probably too boy like for you, your tastes appear to fall on boys who are near developed into teens but for some reason you fall short of legal teens. That's odd. It would lead many to conclude you have repressed homosexuality and internalized homophobia yes. Sometimes the way you describe things it is as though you can accept yourself fantasizing about illegal boys because you are prohibited from acting on them. Get to 16 + and the prohibitions are removed and it could be that there is some sort of self censorship there. It's unusual for someone who can find a 15 yr old attractive to not be able to find an 18 yr old attractive.

How old was he when he was doing the underwear photos? I have definitely been attracted to 12 year old boys before.

The 15 year olds I have been attracted to are no where near that of an 18 year old.

Self-censorship is an interesting thought. Other people on this site have listed their age range as up to 15 years of age though.

What was the point of your post though? The images are still readily available on Google images. If I were to save them would that mean I would be in possession of cp? Perhaps only in the UK?

It depends on your local laws. Stuff is deemed pornography when under 18 that is not over 18.

The point of my post is to try to find out what became of him. It is now hard wired into the public consciousness that he must have suffered terrible psychological trauma in doing that modelling. It is said that if you have looked at his pics then you have 're-victimized him. I wonder if this is true - is he now a mentally ill crack head in an asylum or is he quite indifferent to it?

Where is the line between harmful and merely distasteful?

It depends how successful he was as a child model. If he made plenty of money off just that as a child then chances are his parents screwed him up more than any victimization. If he did lead a successful (happy) life then he may just be embarrassed or ashamed of his child modelling. Or proud. Did the boy lovers admiring him overshadow him simply advertising whatever product he was?

I don't think he modelled in advertising, if I remember the story correctly (I might be getting mixed up with another story) the modelling site he was from was set up to take taboo pictures of boys. I ran into the "boy love" forum boy chat at the time, and noted thier obsession with him, so I imagined some of them would have kept up to date with him - it just interests me to know what became of him.

Oh, well then that changes a lot. Still he could have handled it well and lived a normal life.

(Pssst... My understanding is that far from being harmed, he loved the experience, but I would have to go hang out on boylove forums to find that out, which I'm not prepared to do - I've been corrupted enough)

I'd stay away from the usual forums anyway. Those people scare me.