Fear of being a pedophile, is it true?

I need desperate help because I'm getting major anxiety over this. Let me clarify before I begin that I have never been attracted to children but I have OCD and I'm getting a really bad fear that I might be. Right now it's at its worst and I need help.

I have a diaper fetish, and I often go on diaper porn sights. I believe this began when I was 14 or 15. I'm 17 now. Anyway, I remember looking at some pictures of girls on some of these sights when I was 14, and now I'm afraid some of them might actually have been children. I remember seeing some specific pictures that I got off to when I was 14, and I'm sure some of them were underage. I didn't know at the time, I thought they were my age, the idea that they might have been children didn't even come to my mind.

I've looked up the source on them and they lead to some Asian websites and I don't know if they were CP sights or not but they might have been. Am I a Pedophile? OR was it just a mistake because I was young and I didn't know? I'm so scared right now. I'm not attracted to kids nor do I want to be. Please help. It's realy affecting me negatively.

I don't think you're a pedophile. I lot of people suspect they're a pedophile because of anxiety and Obsessive compulsion.

Often, when people have a strong fetish, it can turn them on even of the individual involved isn't usually the type they'd be attracted to.

If you don't feel that you would just love it to see a pretty child naked and touch their bodies then you can be pretty sure you're not a pedophile.

And even if you are, just because you're a pedophile doesn't make you a bad person.

Thank you so much, this really helped calm me down. OCD sucks and I've had it for so long, I'm tired of it. Deep down I know I'm not attracted to kids, but OCD really can make me doubt it. Thank you again for the help.

No. Accidentally seeing something that might have been child porn does not make you a pedophile.