Hi, I'm a pedo who needs friends

Hi,im Vic and im a 36 year old male who is attracted only to girls younger than 8. I am pedo and im not ashamed. Is this wrong? I don't care. Its my life. Some people are born to have meaningful relationships with women their own age and some like us are not. Theres nothing wrong with that. Just because society at one moment in time decides to alter the laws of evolution. Thers nothing wrong with us. The world we live in is messed up. I've always been attracted to young girls ever since i was a preteen myself and sleeping and kissing and having sex with a large plastic doll. I used to dress and undress her, kiss every part of her plastic body, hold her close to my naked body for hours until i fell asleep, smelling her plastic hair. I was a shy child who never had any real friends because im fat. She was my only friend. Why is wrong to be attracted to children and to want to have to have sex with them if the children themselves want this. Some young children are fascinated by sex with the opposite sex and no man made retarded laws will change that. When will people learn you cant fight mother nature. I had a 4 month relationship with an 8 year old girl on internet. The girl from my dreams told me she loves me. I was living my dream. I was on top of the world. The only downside of being on top of the world is the hard ground you hit when your loved one stops loving you. I couldn't stay in the house anymore for weeks. I felt like i have no air, like the walls are closing in on me. Im still not over her but she decided she wants to be an innocent girl now. Would i do it again even though the pain of brake up is more terrified than anyone could imagine? Yes! Im trying. I came close establishing a relationship with an 7 year old princess who also told me she loves me after she saw me but sadly her stupid parents found out about us. The point of this story is, if your a pedo you dont need friends. You need to go out there and find your dream boy or girl. Their out there searching for you too. You only live once.

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