Bikini Fetish

I think the beginning of my realizing I was a pedophile began when I saw an image of a girl in a bikini. It quite impacting at the time because I thought the reason kids didn't wear those was that they hadn't yet developed enough to fill it out and because it was such a sexually charged image.

I like the look of topless girls, even if they're flat chested but I must admit there is something decidedly saucier in a girl with a bikini top. If I saw a girl dressed this way and she proceeded to take it off, that would thrill me but I must admit that I bizarrely sometimes find it a little more satisfying, if the girl in question is flat chested.

It must be indicative of being attracted to pubescent features over prepubescent. As well as my pseudopedophilia. It's just very stimulating to perceive the incongruity between a creature that people insist should not be regarded sexually and such an erotic garment that enforces on them the pubescent shape.

Was this girl that you saw developed at all? How old would you say she was?

About 8 and completely flat chested.

Do you think it was just that she was wearing a bikini (I think wearing one almost gives the impression that you had breasts, even if you don't)?

I think I wore a bikini from the age of like 6 or 7, and I remember feeling like I had boobs when I was wearing it (I didn't, obviously, but it kind of felt like I did). I remember my brother or my stepdad (I don't remember which) making some comment about having "something on top" or something. So I do think it might create that impression, even when you know they don't. It is almost MOST sexual because they are convered.

That's the point I was getting at.

I can appreciate the sex appeal in a prepubescent body but I think that endowing them with the illusion of a pubescent characteristic is what put me over the edge.

Of course I could still be a legitimate hebephile.

Yeah, I think that is what bikinis do. Ha ha! I don't think my parents ever thought about it that way! Ha ha ha!

Well, I think all guys are hebephiles, really.

-- Mon Jan 19, 2015 10:23 am --

Or do you mean exclusively?

Not exclusive or even preferentially but I believe that I do have a greater than average appreciation for a pubertal body.

I really like bikini for young girls, so I understand that.

May I ask you what do you mean by pseudopedophilia?

I think most guys like young girls. Even guys who say they don't I have seen looking!

When I say pseudopedophilia I mean an attraction to children not for the features of their body but for the idea that they're children.

A normal pedophile might like someone's body in spite of them being well below the age of consent.

A pseudopedophile could be the exact opposite: they are attracted to the illegally young age perhaps in spite of not having a preferential desire for children.