Desire to be sexually satisfied by my mom

A little about me first: I'm a 20 year old fellow. I'm not a virgin. I had sex about fifty times with two girls since I was 16. I no longer interact with them. I used to masturbate frequently, but I stopped 2 months ago as an experiment. I don't want to start this habit again.
The Odeipus Complex that I had as a child has come back for revenge three days ago. The difference is that this time, I am ready to act upon my desire. I don't want sex per say, I would be fine with just a handjob.
My relationship with my mom is a typical spoiled brat and slave one. She does everything for me even though most of the time I treat her like garbage and don't show gratitude. She has raised me on her own because father left when I was a baby and from what I can tell, she has no interest in me sexually.
I've devised a guide with mutiple steps that could guarantee me a higher chance of reaching my goal. The main step is becoming the best son ever, helping her with her work and such, so that she feels like she owes me something special. Another step is spending time with her talking and increasing phyical contact, of which there is none at the moment (-hugs, kisses, massages). The process could take up to a month. It sounds like a good deal to me: be a model son in exchange for the occasional handjob and maybe more.
I've read hours upon hours of mom-son related sexual questions and issues, but I have not seen one convincing argument as to why I should not do this, other than the chance of being thrown out, but I am willing to accept that risk. What I expect from people reading is to give me actual good reasons as to why pursuing this desire is wrong c:

Well, I don't know what else to say to this except it's pretty sad that the only way you're willing to treat your mom well is with the hope of her giving you something in return. Like, you're not even truly being nice to her, you just want to manipulate, or groom her into giving you something you want. Why don't you treat her good anyways?


ps. i guess that's my reason for why you shouldn't do it. Because it's extremely cruel to your mother.


Also i'm not saying I agree with doing this by any means, but why can't you just propose it to her instead of tricking her into it?

I don't treat her like she deserves because she already does everything for me while I act like a jerk. I just can't be bothered to care about something if it doesn't benefit me - Though this is not always the case .. I had moments when I've shown healthy human behavior towards my girlfriends; being altruistic.

I can't just jump to sex, I have to ease into it. Proposing it to her straight away would most likely get me nothing. I doubt my mom wants to get hot and sexy after cleaning the mess and cooking food for an ungrateful, immature brat that insults her every day. I wouldn't call it manipulation.. I prefer the word seduction. I plan to seduce her by giving her the thing she desires most - me being nice/normal.

Thank you for replying, Dita!

Hi, Leo.

I'm not going to beat around the bush with you.

LEAVE YOUR POOR MOTHER ALONE.

Your treatment of her is absolutely abysmal, and you've got enough mental clarity to acknowledge that. If you go through with this plan of yours, then you'll wreck your relationship with her, and break her heart in a very cruel way. She might be stupid enough to wait on you like a bloody prince, but she doesn't deserve that.

You're obviously not stupid. You might lack empathy, but you're perfectly capable of understanding right from wrong, and there's no point pissing around here. You need to get a grip on yourself and consign that ridiculous plan to your mental dustbin before you go and do irreversible, cruel damage.

When you've done that, maybe you should look at some of the personality disorder sections of this forum, and work towards becoming the type of son who'll treat your mother the way she deserves to be treated.

You are convincing, Graveyard. But as you said, I am not stupid.. I also know how my mom reacts. I have thought of everything, analyzed every possible scenario, my plan doesn't even have a point where my mom finds out or figures out my desire IF she doesn't end up feeling the same, for I will not make a sexual move on her; she is the one that will or will not make the first move. So damage to my mom or my relationship with her will be nonexistent and of this I am certain. I wouldn't even think about going through with my plan if it had the chance of destroying the comfort I currently live in.

Just to make something clear: I am not sexually attracted to my mom, she doesn't even have an attractive body. All I want is sexual release from her in any form even if it is just a one time thing, something that I could always get from a more appropiate person, but my mind is set on my mom. I guess it all boils down to curiosity..?

That dog looks fancier than both of mine.

Arguments as to why incest with your mother is a very bad idea were discussed on this thread http://www.psychforums.com/paraphilias/topic142060.html as well. You may want to check it out. It is exceedingly unlikely that your mother will want sexual contact with you and the chance of cause long-term damage to your relationship with your mother are exceedingly high. So you should not do this.

To most of the internet's dismay, I decided to go through with my plan of seducing my mom. Yesterday was the first day and it did not go as I expected. I left my room clean before going to college, we cooked together, I washed the dishes, I didn't insult her once - I was basically a model son. All my behavior seemed fake for the first few hours, but it became natural. When night time came, we slept embracing each other in the same bed - something I didn't plan on doing until the 3rd day, at least.

It might sound like it all went well and in accordance to my expectations, but that couldn't be further from the truth. I realized today that she will always view me as her kid, meaning she will never be sexually attracted to me. BUT, at the same time, this might be a blessing.. I can see her loving me enough as a kid to satisfy any need I might have, including the need for sexual release in the form of handjobs. She might be willing to do it if I ask nicely right now. As for intercourse, I don't see it ever happening.

I will continue with my plan of being a good son for a bit longer in order to see if anything changes. It took me one full week of writing and editing my guide to seducing her so I'm not gonna let that go to waste even if the chance of it not working is somewhere around 99.99% .. xD I'm stubborn.

I completely agree with Graveyard.

I think we're dealing with psychopathy here. The fact you clearly have a plan and want to carry it out despite the consequences and the fact you only care about yourself and your own needs shows that you're a psychopath, which is not a mental illness per se but I suggest talking to a professional before things start to escalate.

I mean, this is sexual grooming, except it's not a child this time but an adult woman.
And this is cruel. She's your mother.
But I'm not gonna waste my time saying how cruel it is as you early lack empathy thus can't really understand how she would feel like in one of your possible scenarios.

Abandon the plan. I'm sure Mommy dearest loves her son and will even take a bullet for you, but she is not going to give you a bj no matter how many hints you drop. If she was slightly sexually attracted to you don't you think she would give hints already? You don't get awarded for not treating her like crap lol.
It doesn't matter how many days, weeks, months, years, decades, or centuries, it is not going to happen.