what the hell is wrong with me?

So I got outed today.
Perhaps not as badly as it could have been, it was only my interest in hard vore and being consumed that got outed and not my interest in kids...which I should be grateful for, but I still feel super exposed and vulnerable. I recently lost the only person who pretty much gets all of it and now I just feel super alone and horrible. Its like there is a constant nightmare going on in my head, my anxiety level is currently on panic mode and I just wanna cut...or go to sleep and not wake up.
I don't know how to tell people about who or what I am, and trying to have that conversation is so ######6 awkward to say the least...even just about vore..."hey, can we just pretend that you are an anthro animal and that you are going to eat me alive bite by bite?" I dont even know how to cope with this right now...and say I wanted to play a little, that would make it worse because its like "hey can I pretend to be a 4 year old whilst you eat me?" what in the actual ###$...There are some times when I am ok with what is in my head. I can accept it and life is ok, but I have never felt this exposed and I'm not ok with it...
sorry for the ramble rant...any thoughts?

It does not matter what part of you was exposed it is still a huge violation, nobody has the right to expose any part of anyone but themselves an my heart goes out to you, even though your pedophillia was not exposed it is natural for you to feel vulnerable. Even something that is quite common such as vore and being a vore lover myself it is still horrible to have that exposed as people are not as accepting or even tolerant of such things despite there being absolutely nothing wrong with it.

I dare not imagine what it must be and feel like to have your private life ripped from you for everyone to see. My heart goes out to you, we need people in our lives to get by and when we do not have anyone you feel so small and isolated from everyone and everything but please know and try to remember that you are not alone, easier said than done I know but you can always count on us to be here and support you no matter what.

I struggle at times to cope when nobody knows anything let alone in a situation such as yourself, the best advice I can give is to just take it day by day, make it through today. People are amazingly static, in a week or so they would have found something else to bitch and moan about but there will always be a few that wont forget and sadly that is what I imagine hurts the most. Remember there is nothing wrong no matter what other small minded people may say, you are perfect the way you are.

I am always here if you need someone to listen. You can get through this.

Tulula.