I'm a hebophile, I think...

Just joined so go easy on me please

Male, 19.

Girls my age just don't seem to be attracted to me and online dating has been poor (tried for 2 years) so I kinda long for girls who are 12-16 year old because I am attracted to them and I will be in authority I guess...

I don't know why I've all of a sudden taken an interest in girls <16, like I said I think it's because girls my age and over don't like me/attracted to me.

I'm not attracted sexually to kids below the age of 12....but I still do like girls my age and to get a relationship with them is my priority over getting girls <16...

When I read rape stories of children, I feel disgusted by it but at the same time, sometimes it arouses me, especially when I read it....
I've been in many situations with kids, tutoring, family friend parties and I never dare carry out my actions.

I don't even know what I want to do but I'm just writing this. I never will tell anyone in real life but I don't have friends in the city anyways...

Thanks for listening.

I appreciate your honesty. May I ask you a question?

You say you are disgusted but aroused at the same time reading a story of child rape, yet you are not attracted to girls under 12. My question is, what is it about them that doesn't attract you?
Is it because their bodies are underdeveloped, or because kids are intellectually inferior?
Would you be aroused by a rape story of a girl you weren't attracted to just because she's being raped?

Nutty McNutbar wrote:I appreciate your honesty. May I ask you a question?

You say you are disgusted but aroused at the same time reading a story of child rape, yet you are not attracted to girls under 12. My question is, what is it about them that doesn't attract you?
Is it because their bodies are underdeveloped, or because kids are intellectually inferior?
Would you be aroused by a rape story of a girl you weren't attracted to just because she's being raped?

Yeah the bodies are not developed and their faces are too child-like for me to be sexually attracted to them.

Yeah I can sometimes be aroused from rape stories(when I read it, not so much when I see it ) whether the girl is attractive or not....it's just the authority and the power over the girl which does it for me tbh.