Pedophile but only in my fantasies!

First post so be gentle!

So I'm a pretty normal mid twenties guy. I don't do too badly with women and I've got a good life, good friends and a great family. For some reason I have an obsession with imagining myself having sex with young girls but only when I'm masturbating or while having sex.

I get along so well with kids and I'd never want to hurt them or ever touch them in a sexual way but thinking about having sex with them when I'm alone seems to drive me wild. I've met some girls my own age throughout my life that like to talk about it too because they know that I'd never do the things that I talk about but I worry that it still makes me a pretty awful person even though I'm pretending.

My first question: is it illegal to talk or roleplay with someone of your own age about having sex with an underage girl if the girl you're imagining is a little girl that you've met? Even if you don't intend to do anything that you talk about?

My second question is what kind of person am I? I'd never dream of having sex with a child in real life but I can still be turned on by imagining it. It confuses me so much sometimes and I'm never sure if I'm a bad person or if there's maybe other people like me.

Any help would be greatly appreciated!

First answer: It isn't illegal to roleplay with consenting partners.

Second answer: You're a person who thinks children are sexy. That doesn't make you a bad person, and you aren't alone in that. Me, while I'm not exclusively attracted to children, so few adult women do anything for me I just don't bother to date at all.

Hi and welcome here

You're not a bad person. You are allowed to fantasize and as long as you are using these fantasies to spice up your own sexlife (e.g with yourself) or with adult, consenting partners there is absolutely nothing illegal about it.

Do you know what it is about this fantasy that turns you on the most? Maybe if you think about this you will find what it is specifically which can help you understand yourself more and help with your self esteem in regards to this.

Welcome again

What the above people said! Do not let that relatively little quirk determine who you are. You are aware that you have other positive properties aswell, so focus on those

I myself am a molester, though not the "rape a million children and burn their corpses" guy. I did some touching that I shouldn't have done and now I am getting a TONNE of help, so I'm well on my way out of the entire thing.

All that having been said, you still have a somewhat dangerous side of yourself that you need to keep watch over. I felt exactly like you once, but I lost control by me wanting more and more, ending up in a 'mild' molestation of a child. Keep extreme watch over your tendency and whatever you do, do NOT let it evolve because it WILL ruin your life like it ruined mine.

There is help to get, should the need arise. And rather get the help before something bad has happened, right?

Good luck with everything dude. I'm sure you can handle it!