Ever have this feeling?

by **platonic** » Sat Nov 09, 2013 6:12 am

I've been in an awesome space recently and everything is going well.

Now im still feeling good, but I'm starting to think about this intern at work a lot....like a lot...creepy level.
And my thoughts are of a sadistic nature (like stabbing. Cutting into pieces. Ya know, the whole gang)

I'm wondering how normal this is? In the the past I've never focused on who it was I was hurting, but this intern is different.

I really don't know! There are characteristics like perfect white skin etc but it's not like other people don't have the same look.

I enjoy hurting people, my offending was based around enjoying the pain of kids more, but who that kid/person was didn't matter. This is the first time I am focused on one person.

by **KevinG31** » Sun Nov 10, 2013 8:44 am

Your desire is similar to the scene in the movie Fight Club where a guy destroys the face of a good looking blond guy because he wanted to "destroy something beautiful". You are obviously finding this person's clear skin attractive so you want to destroy that by cutting into it. I've had that feeling before, I never like people who are "too perfect" in some way, it brings out violent feelings in me.

by **HesDeltanCaptain** » Sun Nov 10, 2013 8:56 am

Would say stabbing and cutting into pieces aren't sadism at all but homicidal. Is normal if you're a serial murderer, not normal if into the BDSM scene.

by **Siamese Fever** » Sun Nov 10, 2013 5:17 pm

platonic wrote:
Siamese Fever wrote:Why is this intern different?

I really don't know! There are characteristics like perfect white skin etc but it's not like other people don't have the same look.

I enjoy hurting people, my offending was based around enjoying the pain of kids more, but who that kid/person was didn't matter. This is the first time I am focused on one person.

Perhaps this intern seems more vulnerable in your mind than the usual?

by **platonic** » Mon Nov 11, 2013 12:39 am

The intern does have a vulnerable virginal quality and is almost a classic stereotype.

I'm tying to avoid looking like a creeper, but all morning I've been thinking of errrrr adult inflicted situations. Im not going to go nuts, but still thinking about stabbing in the eyes with my pencil. Ho-hum.

HDC: Sadism: the tendency to derive pleasure, especially sexual gratification, from inflicting pain, suffering, or humiliation on others.

by **platonic** » Thu Nov 14, 2013 1:05 am

I have no plans to go loco or anything, but im obsessing. The intern has suffered/died 1000 times in my mind, and I still am watching him like a hawk.

I've never had ocd, but wondering if its something along that line?

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