So, I am planning to see a psychologist about my other issues. I intend to tell them EVERYTHING except my possible mild eating disorder, AND my suspected paedophilia.
But, I think it is important to mention sexual issues. So, I plan on mentioning my weird sexual fantasies as a child, and my spanking fetish. This is a big thing, as I have only told one person, a close friend, about it, and that was not in person.
Well, this started off about it happening to me, but then I would read stories about it happening to children. If I admitted to the psychologist that I fantasise about it happening to children (and even previously looking up videos of it happening, which were legal youtube videos) (WITHOUT mentioning anything about reading stories about and imagining children having sex), would they think I was a paedophile?
Which has made me think, one other thing worth mentioning is my daydreaming frequently involving sexually abused / molested / raped children. This would be worth mentioning, but again, if I admitted to imagining the scene itself (though the focus is always on the emotional effect), would this indicate paedophilia to the psychologist?
So, would these two things make a psychologist think I was a paedophile?
Thank you for any input.