Loving “Little Girls” of ALL AGES

Hi… well, I don’t know very well how to explain… I kinda think I am a pedophile, or at least I think I am “something” which may include “being a pedophile”.

First of all I need to let pretty clear one thing: I’ve never done anything illegal, or harm any child, I would never do such acts. I would never harm a child.

Well, let tell you guys a little about me:

I am 21 years old, I never have any girlfriend, I never have any sexual relation. Hell, I not even kiss any girl in my whole life yet. I always was a child very over protected, and in a certain way, I still am a very over protected people by my parents, I still live with them, I never suffer any kind of sexual abuse (before someone thing something like it). I am very shy person, especially with women. I always had very few female friends when I was growing up, and most of girls in my childhood weren’t very nice with me. Well, let’s just say that I never have much interaction with little girls not even when I was a child.

When I was like 19 years old, I started to realize that I had these “feelings” by little girls (but not necessary “biological” little girls, I’ll explain further), I just felt a deep desire to be around them, to protect them, to play with them, to take of them. I found them cute and adorable. But at the time it wasn’t something that I understood, it was sort of a subconscious thing back them. I mean… at that time I couldn’t stand the idea that maybe I could be a… you know.

But there was, there is, something in the “INFANT WAY” that I just found absolute adorable. An innocent way of seeing life, purity in their eyes. And this attracted both romantically as sexually.

And you may be asking yourselves why did I say “little girls of ALL AGES”. Well, because what attracts me isn’t necessary their biological body, and rather their state of mind. Let me explain I’ve always loved women with an innocent way of being, those women that most people would consider cute, adorable and even “childish”. Childish women, women with an “infant way of being”. I mean, I rather see a woman with a cute smile than see a woman trying to be “sensual”.

In the course of time I found out that there was something called “Adult Baby Syndrome” that basically are people who have an infant side, who love be treated like a baby, or a little girl. I found out that there was something called “Daddy’s Little Girl Relation” in which an adult male takes care of an adult woman who wants to be treated as a little girl, who has a little girl side.

I started to get more and more interested about, this allowed me to explore my feelings towards “innocence” without shame or guilty. I mean, in my mind it was okay for me to get arousal to an adult woman acting as a little girl, since despite of all she could cleary consent.

I was… I am sexually excited by the idea of myself taking care of an adult little girl. Giving bath on her, dressing her, playing with her, feeding her, reading her stories, THESE THINGS turn me on, but at the same time… I have no desire what so ever to have any kind of direct sexual relation with them, at least in this context. The single idea of me taking care of an adult little girl turned on. I didn’t get sexually excited with the idea about “######6 her”, or anything of the sort. For example, I would get sexually excited simply dressing an adult little girl, and feeding her, and cuddling here, reading her a bed time story and so on.

But then something happened… I realize I had those some feelings, those same love and sexual feelings towards actual little girls too. At the same way I could fall in love with a 25 years old adult little girl… I guess could fall in love with an 8 years old girl.

Then I started to collect photos of cute little girls (NORMAL PHOTOS. I don’t like child porn nor do I watch child porn), it was just cute little girls photos, photos of innocent girls. You know? Like a little 8 years old blond girl, with pigtails and white-tights and Mary-Jane… I have to be honest, this photos turned me on. The innocence around them turned me on.

I think that be best way to describe what I feel is that I am attract romantic and sexually to innocence/childishness/cuteness the age doesn’t matter. I mean, it’s funny, all women that I ever found pretty had a very innocent way of being, I mean, you know… Those really girly girls, like Zooey Deschannel, for example. Women with cute bows on their heir, women fragile and cute, women who need protections. Women who love laugh and playing around

I love childishness

I feel the same way in the sense that I have a very strong emotional/romantic attraction to little girls that is primary and stronger than the sexual attraction, but I wouldn't use the word "innocence" to describe them. It implies that adults are somehow "guilty" of something, as opposed to children.

Well, I admit I didnt know about this syndrome and it sounds interesting to me. I think it could be more like an "emotional pedophilia". If you say that the innocence of a 8 year old turns you on, well, it's that. Pedophilia implies that an actual child is the object of arousal, you wouldnt be a pedophile if you were only attracted to adult women acting or looking like little girls.
Well I am only attracted to 8-9 year old girls in a cute way, like I wanna take care of them, help them with homework, cuddle them, more like a dad would, with the difference that I may also find them physically attractive...but it's not sexual, more like just physical like in a flirty cute way. When they are around 11 there start the sexual thoughts but I would never do that of course.
I find your story interesting though.

To the OP,

My strong advise to you is not to entertain and follow your potential for obsessive sexual thoughts towards young girls, think where in the long term this could potentially lead you.

It sounds fairly certain that you have the potential to be attracted to adult woman of the right type (ie "innocent" as you describe), especially those adult women that are willing to entertain your consenting fantasies.

You shyness, insecurity and lack of experience with adult women is driving your thoughts in an obsessive way towards pedophilia.

You have the capacity as a free person, to try and work on the issues of your shyness and social confidence, and to try and focus on adult women and getting in a relationship with adult women, of a type that you find attractive.

As your life progresses, you can either develop and maintain relationships with adult women, or continue to have no experience with them and descend further into excessive sexual fantasies regarding children.

One of these directions, choosing to pursue adult women as your interest, is legal, and accepted and is the only realistic way of you ever having a long term companion.

The other direction, focusing only on your girls, will significantly tempt to behave in a way that present serious legal risks to yourself, but also risks severe social consequences on your life, if your interests are found out.

I strongly suggest it is the best thing for you if you do your uttermost to face the issues you have with shyness and lack of experience with women, and orientate yourself towards and pursue legal relationships and expression of sexual fantasies with women, even if these fantasies involve mock scenarios of behaving like young children.

Best WIshes.

I think the above poster has it spot on. I think there is a little bit of 'pedo' in all of us, the fact that you haven't had a way to fully express yourself sexually has maybe lead to you becoming infatuated on females that are seen as not a threat or intimidating. A cute lil 8yo is certainly going to make you feel less self conscious than an experienced woman of your own age for example.

I would recommend you try to get yourself out there, joint a couple of online dating sites for example and try to find someone that you can get some adult experience with.

First of all, I would like to thank you everyone to the replies… it’s so good to be able to talk about this with someone.

“Well I am only attracted to 8-9 year old girls in a cute way, like I wanna take care of them, help them with homework, cuddle them, more like a dad would”

I felt a similar feeling; it’s almost as a parental love in a certain way.

I strongly suggest it is the best thing for you if you do your uttermost to face the issues you have with shyness and lack of experience with women, and orientate yourself towards and pursue legal relationships and expression of sexual fantasies with women, even if these fantasies involve mock scenarios of behaving like young children.

Thank you, I really appreciate your advice. And, I agree, that’s the best thing that I can do. I think that relate to adult cute women who like to behave as little girls… it’s the best way to myself expresses my feelings towards innocence and childishness without harming anyone. And, fortunately there are many adult women who has this childish side and who want to someone treat them as a childish. So I think that is a win-win situation.

“the fact that you haven't had a way to fully express yourself sexually has maybe lead to you becoming infatuated on females that are seen as not a threat or intimidating. A cute lil 8yo is certainly going to make you feel less self conscious than an experienced woman of your own age for example.”

I had never thought about what you just said. And… it make a lot of sense, it was a really smart remark that you’ve just said. As a very shy person it’s understandable that I get more comfortable surround by little girls, since they will seem less threatening. Maybe my desire towards innocence is a reflect of self-insecurity mine.