Am I over thinking things?

Hello again all.

My previous thread I made in the midst of a breakdown. Since then, I've accomplished all I set out to do there for the most part. However, I have another question to ask, in an attempt to sooth my mind.

There is now a heavy weight of anxiety on my head. Since I was young, around 13, I looked at a lot of porn and got completely addicted. It started out simple enough but continued to get more and more extreme, nearly all of it unquestionably legal, if not weird. Though I needed more to satisfy that craving. The extreme began to get more extreme. I moved on to looking at acts of bestiality. From there, I viewed and downloaded -illustrated- fantasy porn -drawings- of "cubs", as the furry fandom refers to anthropomorphic underage characters and engaged in roleplays where I played as one of these "cubs". This wasn't really hard stuff to find, either. There are a number of dozens of public forums where one can upload and post this kind of art without so much as a second thought with thousands of people there to view. There are literally thousands (very possibly hundreds of thousands) of these "cub" images that aren't even behind a registration wall. Open to public viewing, hosted on servers in Texas (of all places.)

Since the breakdown a few days ago, I've been filled with this absolutely paralyzing fear that I'll face legal trouble for downloading these (bestiality and "cub" art) images. I can say in good faith that I never ONCE even attempted to look for human or real CP. Never. I wouldn't know where to start, I didn't want it even crossing over my cable connection. I suppose my question is if I'm overthinking this and causing myself to become unnecessarily mentally burdened? It seems the law on such a thing is murkey/grey at best in the United States and Canada, with a couple people getting in trouble.

yes. stop worrying. your not going to jail. silly boy.

Heh, how much I wish I could get that in my head. It's reassuring to see the words, though. Thank you.

I always freak out about the stupidest things. I know what its like.