my abnormally high sex drive is destroying me

Yes. It's extremely high, and it makes me feel bad. I just can't help it and I don't wanna become a predator. I'm even afraid to get out where I could see little girls...and indeed! I went out today and saw an attractive little girl (probably around 12) and I couldn't avoid staring at her from time to time...thanks God I know how to hide myself well.
Then a very risky situation occurred: another little girl entered, she was around 8 and pretty. When she went to the table behind where I was sitting, and was kinda close to me, and then randomly went back and forth still close to me...I got aroused...it was risky, I started to smile in a very nervous way, my parents where just there in front of me, I felt a sensation of true panic! Another confirm I absolutely like prepubescent girls, too, and not only early pubescent ones. I was shocked. After all, no one noticed, as I was talking to my father about a funny thing so smiling and laughing wasn't weird in that situation. But that was frightening, it never happened! I felt so exposed! I'm sure nobody noticed, though. I mean, a parent doesn't typically suspect his son is a pedo...

Just saying, it's getting higher and higher and higher and it feels terrible. The 12 year-old girl I am texting (there's an entire post about that situation), well...just thinking about me actually texting an attractive 12 year-old (with ZERO sexual talk) sends me to heaven.

But....since I'm noticing it, I wanna stop it. So I'm literally locking myself up in my house and avoiding all situations that could get me close to a little girl (not saying that every little girl arouses me, just saying I wanna avoid just in case I see an attractive one). It gets me way too aroused to the point of wanting to punch a wall repeatedly cause of the anger and frustration I experience. One day I had to bite the pillow to keep calm and I was crying. It's just so hard!!! My sex drive is just going crazy!!! Always been high but never like this!!!

I'm fighting against myself and trying real hard. I feel like just dying!

that poor pillow.

But seriously, I think you should just focus on all that you can control. Like seeking out relationships with girls your own age for starters. (quick! while it's all still legal!)

Stay strong and keep safe, from all those other pedos who are lurking about attracted to you.

sssssike no one would be attracted to you.

amazeded wrote:that poor pillow.

But seriously, I think you should just focus on all that you can control. Like seeking out relationships with girls your own age for starters. (quick! while it's all still legal!)

Stay strong and keep safe, from all those other pedos who are lurking about attracted to you.

sssssike no one would be attracted to you.

Seeking out relationships with girls my own age?? Sorry, it doesnt work.

What u talking about? I am a pedophile.

I assure you there were at least 2 girls attracted to me. Anyway it's off topic...
You shouldnt answer a serious post like this.

sorry i wasn't going to respond like that but then i thought i shoudln't be serious but what it really amounted to was me making light of the situation. i'm sorry.

I assume sex drive comes from hormones and habits (but please correct me if I'm wrong.) Women tend to have it easier because they have lower testosterone levels. For men, testosterone decreases with age, so it should get easier in time. If you're really struggling, you could ask a doctor for help lowering your libido.

Otherwise, you need to work on your habits. I get hornier when I look at porn, read erotic stories, or daydream about someone to whom I am sexually attracted. If you continuously 'feed' yourself with thoughts of sex, you may just be maintaining or increasing your 'hunger' for sex. Consider that it may be like any other addiction, such as drugs or self-harm. The more you listen to the cravings, the louder they will seem. So try to find other ways to occupy yourself. It may be difficult at first until you make new habits.

As a suggestion, get involved in other forums here. Or other communities that aren't focussed on paedophilia. Non-paedophiles struggle with cravings and urges too. That way you can get support from other people without the focus always being on paedophilia. (If you don't want to think so much about paedophilia, it might help to mix with people who don't talk about paedophilia. )

Masturbation helps. Have a very insistent libido myself and masturbating after waking up, sometime midday, and before bed keeps me sane and from sleeping around.

As a 42yo man I must say the 'testosterone' decreasing with age may well be true, but decreasing the sex drive is a myth. My libido's never been as supercharged as it is now.

Thanks for the insight, HesDeltanCaptain. Being female, I have wondered what it would feel like to have a male's sex drive...how much stronger it would be. I just assumed it would be stronger with more testosterone, but maybe it's a lot more complicated than that.

Certainly I don't think it's coincidence that most sex offenders and people diagnosed with paraphilias are male. Sorry fellas, I think you've got a hormonal disadvantage when it comes to having unwanted strong sexual urges.

I try to stat away from "temptation" but sometimes I just can't resist.
I dont watch porn because I know for sure it would turn me into a predator. Sometimes I read erotic pedophilic stories and that's all. Then my fantasies do the rest....

Since I've been on estrogen therapy for a while, my sex drive has apparently decreased to the point where I want sex but I don't want sex. Strange that, but yeah. So, I guess I've seen or am seeing both worlds when it comes to male vs female sex drives? *shrug*

Although, I still have to keep a leash on my sometimes wandering hands and secretion of pre-ejaculate when interacting closely with children I find attractive. I sometimes completely forget I'm a paedophile because I'm having such happy experiences with them, than all of the sudden I notice my panties are all wet and I feel the need to go to another room to masturbate to fantasies of sex with various children until my body is satisfied. It takes a toll on my emotions, but It's just something I have to live with and keep separate from the kids as much as I can. Once I'm done fapping, I'm good for the rest of the day, I guess.

I'd have to choose to actually molest and/or rape a child. I don't want to make that choice. Though, I let myself have freedom when it comes to possibly stealing unwashed children's clothing. Although, I can't particularly smell my niece become she has no smell... at least to me, so I have to use other kids's clothing. I do not return clothing.

I've only been cognizant of my paedophilia for a year, so I know thing will fluctuate a bit.

It's been over a decade since I've had such happy experiences with somebody(s), I don't want to ruin it.

I dunno if this'll be of any use to you in regards to picking out details that may help, but I try.

Siamese Fever wrote:Although, I still have to keep a leash on my sometimes wandering hands and secretion of pre-ejaculate when interacting closely with children I find attractive. I sometimes completely forget I'm a paedophile because I'm having such happy experiences with them, than all of the sudden I notice my panties are all wet and I feel the need to go to another room to masturbate to fantasies of sex with various children until my body is satisfied. It takes a toll on my emotions, but It's just something I have to live with and keep separate from the kids as much as I can. Once I'm done fapping, I'm good for the rest of the day, I guess.

When I first saw the 12 year-old girl I'm currently in love with (and I mean seriously in love!), damn it was the first time, and when she sat beside me on the couch I felt something heavy in my stomach and something else, well, you know.....and I had to struggle with the urge to just get closer to her and kiss her
Then when I met her again while I was having a walk with her cousin downtown (a 14 year-old attractive girl and I was so proud of walking beside her), and they kissed on the lips (just a small peck) I was just melting and extremely jealous cause I wanted to do that too - the 12 year-old even turned around and looked at me after the peck, something that really turned me on and I thought I couldn't be able to resist....I had to struggle. I don't know why she did that, all I know is that it killed me.
It's hard to resist but I have to. I once touched inappropriately an ex friend of mine (adult girl) when we were both drunk, and tried to do that while sober too, I was a bit younger and immature, but now I'm sure it wouldn't happen! Especially with a little girl! Just no!