Rosalina's Journal

Sorry you feel like things are so up and down at the moment ...... it must suck!

It's great that you love your course so much .... i know its tricky with the whole size thing i remember when i worked in retail and its crazy how one shop can be one size but in another shop you need a totally different one.

Huge hugs to you

Yikes I dont like the sound of the sizes thing.

I am so glad you care so much about your course - it is so important to have things that mean something to us.

Sending you many hugs

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Thanks guys

I'm soooo tired today I could sleep for a week, but my sister has a dancing exam and got me out my bed to put French pleats in her hair

Last night I went to the cinema with some friends, I seen women in black and oh my days it is quite scary!! It's so jumpy.

Today I'm going to work on uni stuff! And then I'm going to play with my bunny I can't wait.

Hugs xxx

When I was at boarding school aged about 14 we were all dragged along to the theatre to watch Woman In Black and it scared the life out of me - I can safely say I am never going to watch the film.

Hope you have fun with bunyip.

Hugs

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AAARRRRRGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!

I need out of here so bad, I can't handle it!! I'm thinking of going away for the summer, I want to spend like 3 or 4 months away from this country. I'm so fed up and I need a change! My problem is I have no money so I've been looking at jobs abroad.

I just can't stand being here anymore and if I don't get away then I think it's going to get worse. I'm so fed up and miserable I'm also extremely bored which doesn't help. So I think if I get away for a while it might help me. I wish I had family abroad so I could go and stay with them.

I wish I could go spend some time in Africa doing volunteer work, if only I had money. I filled an application out for a camp thing in America but I lied and said ive never had any mental problems or whatever. But it's not like I'm crazy or anything just a bit different. I'll not get the job anyway. But it's just I felt weird that that was a question it annoyed me a little. Obviously they need to know because of the job it just bugged me. It annoys me so much the way people treat mental illnesses, I don't understand what it is people have against it like why do people make jokes and stuff. Its not like people choose to be this way!!!!

I hear you on the mental illness question. I am not entirely sure they can discriminate against it tho. I totally believe in travelling and getting away. I think you would love it. Dont forget you can go somewhere get a travel and work visa and bar work in a backpackers or something. I want to join you! There are lots of jobs like that you can get giving you the chance to travel as well. E.g. in SA or Australia. If not then another option is volunteer work - agencies are always looking for volunteers tho this does require some money in most cases to get there and support yourself - tho you may find there is help with this. I would look into both if I was you, but the Camp idea also sounds a good one.

Huge hugs

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I'm with cracked travelling and getting away is always always awesome. I love it i love love love going to other countreis. I would defo look into more options and look at whats around, there are a few charities i know of that do volunteer work and stuff in different places if you want them let me know ......

Huge hugs xxx

I really want to travel, I have major itchy feet lol.

That would be great Lonley-girl if you could let me know about them I'd really appreciate it I was thinking about going away and then working somewhere. I was also thinking I might sell my car to get money lol. But I really love my car. I'd rather go and get a job or something, that would be better I think because I'm not the most cheery person to work with kids lol.

Im having problems dealing with how I feel about someone, they are really nice, kind, caring and considerate but I hate the person so much. Everything they do really annoys me. We were friends for quite a while but now I just want to tell them to shut up and go away. I don't know why I'm feeling like this, because like I said they are so nice etc and have done nothing wrong at all. I'm not a hateful person at all and I don't like being like this. It's like I'm two people, the one that's hateful and wants to do nasty things and then the other can't understand why the other is like that, and keeps trying to point out how wrong it is to have the thoughts that I do. It's weird. Sort of like having the devil on one shoulder and an angel on the other. So anyways I can't understand why I now can't stand someone I used to really like. I don't want to hate anyone, even people that have done really horrible things to me I don't hate but I seem to really despise this person.

What the hell is wrong with me!!!!

Nothing is wrong with you. It sounds like you are somehow triggered by this person for some reason. That is OK - it is OK not to like ppl as long as you dont harm yourself or others with it. If you can try to let it be like water off a duck's back with this person and let what annoys you about them just slide off you. I know it is easier said than done.

Huge hugs

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