Havoctoria's Journal (no replies)

I know who I am, how I am, what I think and how I think.

Contrary to unpopular belief, this is a good thing.

Like... Sorry for being an actual person?

Predictable people are the best kind, in my opinion. Predictability usually results from stability and integrity.

So thank you for pointing out that I'm not some chaotic nobody.

Whatever though. I'm done with you people. That's what I get for trying to join a conversation that was already lame.

Oh.

The person wasn't even talking about me.

Well then.

Still, I've been called that before in an insulting tone. So I'mma redirect those last few posts at all the people who HAVE called me that.

Those people aren't here but... yeah.

That's what I get for automatically assuming people are talking about me.

The person I thought was insulting me ended up complimenting me for the thing I thought they were insulting me about.

Wow.

Epic fail.

I would appreciate if the mods would disapprove of all the entries (except this one) that I have waiting to be approved.

I would really appreciate it.

I think a few people would appreciate it.

There.

Now I don't have to worry about using the internet too much. I switched my phone back to a monthly plan. F*ck yeah, unlimited everything.

Being broke sucks.

Dear Society,

You brainwash the vast majority of people into hating, fearing and denying something, yet you still call it "ideal".

Sincerely,
Someone Who Isn't Simple-Minded Enough To Fall For Your Mind Games

P.S., "Ideal" for who, exactly? Name a time where everyone ever wanted the exact same kind of relationship. I triple-dog dare you.

Personally, what I hear most people call an "ideal relationship" makes me wanna hurl... them off of cliffs. What I hear most people call "the perfect man" or "the perfect woman" doesn't even sound human to me. My fem-penis couldn't even get hard for them.

So yeah, people have different things that they want; that is literally the most obvious thing in the world, you f*cknuggets.

WOW. It's not even 11am yet and I'm already at it.

*needs anger management*

I need to stop reading things early in the morning.

3. Eight things that annoy you.

- When people hover over/behind me while I'm using a computer, reading, using my phone... in general, actually.
- When strangers walk too close behind me. Especially if they're talking at the same time.
- Coughing. I don't complain about it out loud, but it annoys me.
- People who sound too sure of themselves (for my liking).
- Having my path blocked while I'm walking.
- When there's nothing on TV I wanna watch.
- When traffic is delayed (in the subway, on the streets or on the sidewalks).
- When sex scenes in a movie are super loud and I have to turn the TV down or the neighbors might complain.

4. Seven fears/phobias.

- Heights.
- High, open places.
- Bugs/insects/spiders.
- Physical torture.
- Being homeless again.
- Getting pregnant.
- Losing one of my five senses.

5. Six songs that you’re addicted to.

- Paralyzer by Finger Eleven.
- Ich Will Dich by Wumpscut
- Sonne by Rammstein
- Minus Human by Metallica
- Attack On Titan's first theme song (the one that doesn't make me wanna tear my ears off and slaughter children).
- I can't think of a sixth song I would say I'm "addicted to" right now.

6. Five things you can’t live without.

I'm gonna leave out the obvious stuff...
- Love.
- Music.
- Pleasure.
- A way to write/type.
- My imagination.

7. Four memories you won’t forget.

- The ones with J. I'm not even gonna specify which ones.
- My cousin getting mad at me when I was a child because I wanted the white Diva Starz doll and not the black one. I thought the white one was prettier and she thought that was racist. It had nothing to do with race for me and even at that age, I thought she was the one being racist for even taking it there.
- The taste of Nutella, oh my god.
- This motorcycle accident I witnessed.

8. Three words you can’t go a day without.

- Sh*t
- F*ck
- Hell

9. Two things you wish you could do.

- Control anyone's mind.
- Control any number of minds at the same time.

10. One person you can trust

- Me.

So I just heard this disgusting worm say to his friends: "I had to swipe some bum-ass n***a on the train this morning."

So that's how people talk about us less fortunate/privileged types after they help us?

It almost makes it not even worth it to ask for help. Why feed their false senses of superiority even more?

You have no reason to get mad at someone else because you volunteered to help them. Especially when you have an unlimited metrocard, which means it costs you NOTHING.

Stop talking sh*t about people who ask other people for help. It's ABSOLUTELY acceptable to ask another human being for any kind of help (unless that specific human being told you otherwise). Nobody's forcing you to give people money and/or put them on the subway. You can always just say "no".

I think people who help & then complain only helped in the first place to boost their egos, & that people who DON'T help yet STILL complain are just trying to rationalize their way out of their irrational guilt over saying "no".