Scared

Hey guys well I'm sure your familiar with my story I have been in cbt for ocd and have always had a fear of being a bad person. For awhile the fear went away. But now it is back, partly because of my past. It's not just a fear because I have done things I feel make me a pervert. I have pushed up against a young boys butt in a pool a few years back when I was 17 and I had a sexual convo with a young teen girl online and it turned me on. So I used to purely be afraid of being a pervert but with the therapy I'm LESS fearful of things which could be bad! I think I may be okay with being a pervert and this does bother me. I mean it does bother me when I think of those 2 thinks I did but the cbt makes me less anxious. I'm not attracted to children, period! Yet when it comes to teens I am attracted to them and I worry I could be a pervert like the people on to catch a predator! I see people with ocd have similar fears of mine but I committed actions. Do I have ocd or am I a pervert? I can't stop feeling guilty over these memories.

Sorry to hear about your stress. As long as you wouldn't harm anyone or do anything illegal like pursue someone who is underage, you are not actually doing anything wrong. Therapy is always good too to help you work through whatever is going on..

-- Sat Nov 03, 2012 2:52 am --

Sorry to hear about your stress. As long as you wouldn't harm anyone or do anything illegal like pursue someone who is underage, you are not actually doing anything wrong. Therapy is always good too to help you work through whatever is going on..