HELP! OCD fear of hurting people!

Richard Anderson wrote:you are not going to become some schizophrenic. Just stop thinking about other people....

That's a very biased view of schizophrenics...
Anyway, I thought I'd weigh in here. I'm also 16 and suffering from "harm OCD," and have been since I was about 6 if memory serves. Until I read your post and a few other accounts of experiences with OCD, I thought mine was extremely severe. I supposed maybe it is, but I'm just better at controlling it (not to sound pompous). I've basically gotten to the point where I can control my "normal" OCD (which used to be quite severe) by simply stopping myself from doing things obsessively (simply does not, obviously, imply easily), and thinking "I won't do that" or "that won't happen if I don't do that" whenever I have an OC thought. I'm trying to do the same thing for harm OCD, but it's considerably when your own or someone else's safety is mentally at stake. I haven't really read anything about CBT, but I would tend to assume that it's similar to my technique, which would mean I independently discovered CBT when I was about 8 (which would honestly be pretty cool). Anyway, if this is similar to CBT, I would suggest you look in to it, it's helped me a ton.
Hope you're doing ok,
Fatso
(honestly, I'm probably underweight).

the original post was made along time ago so i dont no if anyone will see this. But I had physios and got in with a good mental heath team because of it. Then i finally got up the courage to tell them that i was afraid i was going to kill people . Origianlly I thought i would be locked up for the rest of my life and classified as homicidal but i told them all about it and then they booked me for an assesment and an anger test allong with cognitive assesments. I finnished the over 800 questions along with the coginitive assesment and anger assesment. They found that i am the complete opossite of violent that i am really not agreesive at all and just feared becomeing angry like you said. I dont no if the fear is part of my psychosis or not. i dont remember being told that i have ocd because i dont do any of the typical OCD coping mechinizams. I have never been a violent person. The main reason i was afraid of having these thoughts was because i remembered my grandma or someone saying you become what your thoughts are and i told this to my doctor and she said "yes but in the your case its an irrational fear and you will not become what you think."

I rememebr also fearing it so intensly that i promissed myself if i was ever to get of to the point of killing anyone i would kill myself first so i got really depressed and started crying a lot. I would avoid knives and actually threw our whole drarw of knives off the deck to get them away from me.

I know exactly how you feel. Because, I have had OCD since I was a teenager and I'm 35 now. I have the fear of hurting loved ones or others. But I have learnt with my OCD. Strangers find it wierd that I talk to myself at times. However, my friends and family understand my condition and are supportive because they know me well.

Medication and Cognitive Behavior Therapy might help you. I could never afford CBT so I never tried.

Bottom line - if you get cured of you OCD, then great. Even otherwise, You could still lead a normal life.

Hey sweetheart I know it's been a while since you posted this but you'll be okay! I am the same exact way, I can't watch the news or any scary movies cause ill imagine things or freak myself and think what if I do that. The thoughts started about four years ago they come and go but I've learned to block them out. Yes sometimes it's hard but deep down you know you wouldn't do that that you're a good person who just has OCD and anxiety. I told anxiety meds for a while and they helped but keeping yourself busy helps the most to distract your mind. I hope you're doing better, don't worry you aren't alone.

Hi im so glad you posted this you are very brave. I am going through the same thing which started a few months ago. Ive just posted 'newbie...my story' please have a read so we can chat. You are definitely not alone