Obsessive thinking about schizophrenia

It started one day when i heard the word schizophrenia. something just clicked in my mind and now it will never go away. i went home that day and researched the symptoms and i didnt match any of the symptoms. i had my first real panic attack i kept telling my self that "you have schizophrenia" and from there on ive never been the same...

latley its been getting worse to the point where ive convinced myself that i have schizophrenia, i heard about some of the delusions that they have and my mind just went running with it. my latest thought was "what if my life is on a game show and people are watching me and laughing at everything i do" or "what if people are putting thoughts in my head" i know this sounds crazy and i can realize this, but for some reason every time i try to rationalize with these thoughts my mind says "what if there really is a game show about'' etc.. its really annoying, the only reason how i know these thoughts arent real is because my body knows, im not changing my actions or daily routines for this so called "game show" im not scared to be myself (As im writing this my mind is asking "are you sure" "what if you are changing your thoughts/actions?") its just a none stop cycle of WHAT IF's. does this sound like a severe case of obsessional thinking or could it be something more?

Extra: I have never had any auditory hallucinations or visual hallucinations i over analyze ever sound i hear to make sure its real, ive always been shy but not always wanting to be alone, these thoughts are making me scared of basically living normally because of the fear of believing these thoughts.

kd, fear of mental illness itself can be a bit of an obsession, I know. You really do need to ask your doctor to refer you to a therapist who specializes in ocd, and ask for medication to ease your anxiety and ocd symptoms, because chasing your thoughts in circles is exhausting, isn't it?
Good luck; please do see your doctor, because you can feel better than you do now.

P.s. Medication helped me a great deal - so did cognitive behavioural therapy.