Years of Obsessive Behavior (OCD?)

Hi everyone! I am Maggie, a 19 year old girl from Egypt.

I am looking for more of a general assessment rather than a diagnosis, since I'm not after medicating myself at all. For about five years I have had an obsession with drinking before I sleep and then peeing. I would do it for as little as 5-6 and as much as 17 times first in fear of getting thirsty and suffocating in my sleep, then in fear of wanting to pee in my sleep and not being able to. It would go on and on for the average of two hours. Even though I mentally knew very well I was not thirsty, the thought would possess me so much that my throat would get really dry and I would feel like it's being poked by needles. Seconds later (knowing it doesn't make sense) I would feel like my bladder is full and that this pee will torture me in my sleep, so I get up and pee. It has happened to me every single night since I was about 14.

I was diagnosed with having a bipolar personality three years ago, but I'm not very sure of the accuracy of that diagnosis since I had problems with the doctor later on. I stayed on mood stabilizers for two years then decided to quit since it was blocking my creativity and giving me the usual side effects I hated. At first when I started the medication my obsession became somewhat better, then at the end of my medication period it went downhill, even worse than before for some reason. I also noticed that the rate at which it happens relies heavily on how stressed I am.

I tried to work it out by talking myself out of it, constantly trying to remind myself it's an illusion, trying to force myself not to do it, but I always submit eventually.

I'd like to know whether this is in the range of usual OCD behavior or not? I've had a bad experience with psychiatrists and don't feel like opening up to any anymore, but will seek that kind of help if there is absolutely no other solution or action I can take myself

Hi, Maggie! We can't tell you for sure what is going on here as we're not professionals on this site. Maybe it's anxiety or OCD related as you think. People who have OCD often need therapy, though, and it sounds like you're having a hard time with this.
Do you think you could look for a female therapist who seems nice?
Stick around please, maybe someone who knows more will post. How are you?