Need Opinion ASAP

Hello,
I have been diagnosed with OCD for over 10 years now and seen 6 phychiatrcists and all on them have said the same thing I have OCD. Now my new one who I am not very fond of is telling me I have delusions!

This all started when I was put in jail at an early age I began thinking people were putting LSD in my food which in there might be a normal concern, however after leaving jail this obsession has continued off and on the last few years, I know these thoughts are bizarre I have been told I have excellent insight on my disorder by numerous shrinks.

Here it goes Everytime I leave the house and the milk or water etc is open I will not drink it when I return for fear of LSD being in it someone has to drink it before me to take the anxiety away also when I take a Twinkie out of the box it must have air still in the package or I will not eat it I always examine my food to make sure nothing out of the ordinary is in it, I always have to dig to the bottom of the butter or peanut butter for the fear the top may be contaminated, there are a few other obsessions as well but reading this post I would like your insight does this sound like OCD or delusions? I am 99.9% sure this is OCD but after being told its delusions I fear I am going crazy please help,

Also I have panic disorder as well , and at my last visit I was told I have no signs of schizophrenia !

Well if you can recognize that your thinking is irrational, I wouldn't call it a delusion. It's most likely just the neurosis of OCD, but that's only my opinion and is coming from someone with no training/background in psychology.

Thanks made me feel better,

I can chime in here because I know exactly where you are coming from and I have the same thing. You going to jail definetly is the reason for you being paranoid.

I developed simillar issues to you when I was forced to live with someone who I was not getting along with and my mind decided to be very creative. I was worried about someone poisening my food also.

I did all the same things you did when it came to food, even throwing away sealed boxes if I just didn't feel safe about them.

I got over this luckily through the years just by being exposed to this, however I still check if packages are air tight before I buy them etc.

Now I came to a point in my life where I don't care much for myself being poisoned. I think this is because my OCD has shifted into other things than food. I have a problem with new things I buy that are not food. Like if I buy a brand new computer or currently a brand new gun. I think that everyone is trying to contaminate my computer or gun.

Sounds stupid because I am sure you would rather have other things contaminated other than yourself but this OCD is really serious. For example, I think everyone is trying to somehow break or damage my computer, or ruin my gun. Like I came home and thought my gun may have not been exactly how I left it and I was worried that someone may have took it and damaged it somehow. Of course I can not see the damage, but the damage is there. Like secret chemicals or something that will microscopically damage the barrel of the gun so now it will not shoot as straight.

All just OCD. This is why I do not like buying new things, lately.

What is the best way to deal with these things? I think you personally just have to start listening to your rational mind. You know deep down that nobody contaminated your food. So you just have to eat it. You basically have to tell yourself that if someone is going to poison me they will get me one way or the other or just come and kill me. So you will have to start taking the chances and accept that you may die. Exposure is the only way to get by this. You really can't go the rest of your life living like this.

Funny you mention delusions, because sometimes I wonder the same. I remember buying something to clean my gun recently and went to the self-pay area, a cashier then told me to come over to check me out. After buying the product I walked to my car and then thought immediately that did this person call me over to switch out and contaminate my product. It sounds crazy but I just threw the product out in the garbage. My rational mind told me that this would not be possible, but my OCD told me otherwise. Made me think that I am getting really crazy to think that anyone would waste time to do that and it would be almost impossible for them to know the exact product I was going to buy and what line I went on.

I re bought the product at another location and now I started to worry about using it. However, this time around I am taking steps to fight my OCD and will just use the product. It will kill me and I will think my gun is all messed up possibly, but I will expose myself to this. I can't keep living like this thinking that people are going to do this to me.

But exposure thearpy I think works. I was really paranoid about putting my bathroom shampoo and thoothpaste in the bathroom with my new roommates. However, I just did it, and now I do not even think twice about it anymore. I figure, if someone is going to do something, then they will get me one way or the other. I have the same chances of stuff happening to me as anyone else.

Have you thought about using exposure to your OCD to help you get by it? Have you tried it?