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New to this board and looking for help please.

I have always had an obsessive problem since childhood, especially health anxiety but I find that I will suddenly latch onto something and obsess about it.
When the obsession comes it always produces the same horrible panic out of control feelings with anger, wanting to run away from whatever it is I am obsessing about, mostly panic and very tearful, I cannot think of anything except what I am obsessing about.

As I said my worst obsession is with health worries and as I have many genuine chronic health problems its not fun!

I have recently started to be obsessed with noise, I have lived in the countryside next to farm animals for 25 yrs but this past 9 months I am obsessed with any noise a cow or whatever makes and get into a terrible panic and want to run away. Anyone who lives in the depth of the countryside has to put up with the occasional days and nights of bellowing farm animals for various reasons and no one else in my family or neighbours has a problem with this noise but I get very close to suicidal when we have a noisy animal. It all started when we began to take visitors into our house for self catering holidays and I was worried that the noise would annoy them although no one has ever complained about it.

The local farmer is very good and does his best but I have to resist the temptation to complain every time for whatever reason we have noisy cows in the valley. I am sure he thinks I am neurotic which of course I am!

My husband is wonderful but doesn't understand why I react as I do, I have had behavioural therapy for the health anxiety and no joy and don't know where to go next.

Someone talk to me please.

Hi there,

I know it is a horrible decieace we have. I have been obsessive-compulsive since childhood aswell. Trust me you are far from alone, it is nice to hear sometimes isn´t it?
I don´t quite understand everything you said, do you only suffer from obsession? Or do you have compulsions aswell? Meaning do you do irrational stuff to prevent these obsessions from happening?

Have you ever seen someone about your problems? It helps trust me.

Tell us more, take care now!

Thanks for replying and yes I do the compulsive bit as well I think like not eating with my fingers if I haven't washed them first in case I catch something , there are other things I do that are all to do with my health anxiety like if I cut myself I have to put tea tree oil on because I read once that Australian troops during the second world war had used it and none of them had developed infections! So I always have tea tree oil around in house and in vehicle. This I may add is just one of the things!

I have had cognitive behavioural therapy which didn't help but it is so rationed here and only lasted six weeks. I have had many years of phsycoanalysis on NHS surprisingly and I now know exactly why I have health anxiety and why I latch on to something andobsees about it so this is a progress but noway a cure.

I am married to a wonderful man who is very sympathetci but is the exact opposite of me and doesn't worry- I suppose he is normal!

What must it be like to have a day where you don't worry about something.

Glad to have found you.

Debbie