help for gods sake.

Hey man, don't worry about it. I assume the "1995" part of your name indicates your age, which would make you 16, 17? anyway, when i was around your age and first grew accustomed to being sexually aroused by things and started getting familiar with myself, so to speak, i often wondered the same thing. I was constantly questioning which team i was batting for. the defining difference though is that the feeling towards guys was a curiosity, whereas my attractive to girls was a natural inclination. even when i was doing something totally unrelated to sex, i would catch myself checking out girls, and that really is when you know. Even to this day though, when i know my OCD is bad and my libido is gone (especially when taking certain ssri medication), i will wonder if the tables of my sexuality are turning. The bottom line is though, that this is such a common symptom of this disorder that the chances are very slim that these concerns are real. Given the amount of concerns and worries that I have had over the many years with this disorder, if I am gay I must be a rapist, murderer, petty thief, child molester, and pretty much any other taboo thing you can think of. One tactic that I have found useful for dealing with the questioning of sexuality though is to try as much as possible to not care about it and even get familiar with gay people and what they stand for in todays society. I know you may be thinking that is the total opposite of what you think will solve the problem. Truth be told though, you will realize that gay people are no different than straight people aside from their sexuality and that at the end of the day someones sexuality isn't really that important, and i would even go one step further by saying it isn't absolutely necessary that one be sexual in life if they choose not to be. Basically you will come to the realization like I did that it really doesn't matter what sexuality you have nowadays and that hypothetically even if you were gay who cares and it really doesn't have to be anyone elses business but your own. Once you have put so little importance on sexuality you will soon find out what you are truly attracted to, and I can guarantee it is females.

I have just masturbated and whilst watching lesbian porn (getting towards the end if you know what I mean) and my eyes flickered to the side and I saw one of those pop ups how to grow a big dick, and a picture and it freaked me out and I ejaculated in like a minute, I feel awful now, I wasn't doing that bad.

Also, I know feel like my attraction to women has gone, what the ###$ do I do?