Do you even want to change?

As I've known this far, OCD sufferers might have unpleasant obessions like "I want to kill my father", "I'm afraid that I'm bisexual" and many more.
But there are also other obsessions: "I must wash my hands again, they ain't clean enaugh", "I've not completed this task, I can't move on to other task 'til I've done this or that", "I must put these books in this order, it ain't right the other way".
Now when you think about it, as these obsessions shape your 'needs' and 'wants', would you even accept doing things other way? Although they might interrupt your everyday life, you still get 'pleasure' than 'anxiety' by doing them.

EXAMPLE:

1) You like to do THING1
2) You feel pretty bad and anxious if you do THING2 than THING1.
3) But apart from anxiety you want to do THING2 more than everything, but you can't simply because these obsessions tell you "Do THING1. Don't do THING2" (You want to do THING2, because not doing THING2 would interrupt your everyday life).
4) And you're so damn comfortable doing THING1 and these obsessions have made you to like doing THING1. From now on, as you are able to do THING2, you'd still miss THING1 and you don't even want to change.

[An example for this EXAMPLE would be: Someone would have obsession to listen one song 'til he/she memorizes every single note and lyrics of this song. Although he wants to listen other songs more than everything, he simply just can't yet because of this obsession. And this someone actually likes to listen songs this way. After weeks of listening, he has listened three songs like this and he accpets doing this for years, even if he wants to listen them more frequently. And that person doesn't even want to change, he accpets and likes this way of listening songs, even if deep in his heart he wants to listen hundreds of various artists, albums, but this will be limited only to one or two artists because of this obsession.}


-I know, this is pretty complicated what I just explained, but if you understand it, what's your opinion on this?

I dont have an opinion yet, can you give an example like this with someone who has HOCD ?
Or POCD of harm OCD idk oe of those.
I'd prefere HOCD i think that that would be the easiest example to explain cause i don't quite get it.

I have HOCD,I would rather change back to my pre-HOCD self. I've never really had a specific obsession except for my irrational fear of plastic toys when I was younger (I was afraid I would try eating them and choke).

Although, I do check my doors to make sure they're locked and check like 20 times to make sure it's set right. I don't really mind that much since it doesn't take much time out of my day, but the urge to check can get annoying and I think my roommates think I'm weird since I walk out of my apt to go to work but then I come right back in to check that my bedroom door is locked. I always pretend like I forgot my wallet or phone or something haha. But HOCD, oh man, you do NOT want that. Constantly feeling gay, checking, watching gay porn, etc. It makes me feel like not even half the person I was before. I know I'm not gay. I'm 20 years old, never had feelings for a dude, been in locker rooms hundreds of times wihtout the groinal reaction and now I get that sensation whereas before I didn't get it.

The answer of yes sounds simple enough. I do not mind my situation too much as it currently is. However, if I could change I would spend less money on tissues, lint rollers, notebooks, etc. That sounds like a good thing. Oh man if I could be rid of this I could finally walk on the brick walkways on campus again! That would save so much time getting to class instead of taking the sidewalks all the way around the buildings.

If I went back to my previous self... I wouldn't be able to function!

IMagine someone who second guesses everything. He must know what everyone wants, says and be able to know it all.

WHy?

To protect himself

Evertime he goes out among everyone, he trying to second guess any tyoe of conversation because if he doesn't, he's vulnerable

When he was young... by family member accounts, he rocked back and forth in his crib as if he was rocking himslef in rocking craddle... because Mom did not believe in rocxking the baby to sleep.

Ever since he was two... he rocked himself... up to middle age, sitting in fetal position and moving his upper body back and forth. When he was young he didi this every waking moment.

Does he want to change. Doesn't even know he's supposed to change!

As he get's older... he is calculating everything around him... to keep himself safe.

LIFE IS TEST. AND YOU MUST PASS IT! NO MATTER WHAT! OR, YOU WILL DIE!

And, this underlying belief is and has been present all your life... to a point you don't realise that it can have an effect on others.

You get married... and, because of the disorder... you find yourself alone, believing your life is gone. Writing on this site, though finding what you write is under descimination. You wish to do anything to help people when you can, but not always.

So much knowledge. Now, such a waste.

IF you have OCD, and it is interfering whith your life? DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT! YOU DESERVE A LIFE! (take it from me.)