all kinds of intrusive thoughts

Hello my name is Thomas i am 21 years old. For the past 2 years or so i've been suffering from intrusive thoughts. In the first year i kept being obsessed with death , i was so afraid every day that i was going to die. I told my parents about this and we went to the doctor with my problem and they told me it was all anxiety and that i shouldn't be worrying about it.

Eventually these thoughts stopped and my life was going fine for about 3-4 months with no thoughts at all. Then around March-April i started getting them again but this time sexual ones, i couldn't get the image of genitalia out of my head, ever since that i've just been having all kinds of horrible thoughts that i hate! about children animals my family, it's gotten so bad that i just want to do nothing but sleep at times.

Since last friday the thought that has been torturing me has something to do with a girl i know and love, i met her online and we've known eachother for about a year now. I know she is a girl because she has shown enough to me to prove it and vice versa. We chat with eachother everyday , but since last friday now i am constanly imagining i am talking to a creepy man while i know that's not true! and i hate it! it's pretty much ruining my life. And i can't stop talking to her because i really care about her!

The only time i feel somewhat ok is late at night.

I am too scared to tell this to anyone, is there any ways to make this all easier or to make it go away? If this continues much longer i will go see a pshychiatrist because i really don't want to live like this. I get disgusted by these thoughts and i just want to have a normal life again.

Hi Thomas,

I know how awful intrusive thoughts can get.
*hugs*
I'm sorry you're having a hard time. Does your girlfriend know about it?
Talking to a psychologist might be good idea. They really can help; sometimes it just takes patience to find the right one.

Well wishes,

Evol

I know how awful the thoughts can be I get them as well. I found that if I turn the tables on them and make them "somewhat humourous" they don't seem so bad and they go away faster. I talk more about this in my ebooks.

Hope this helps.

hello thomas, those thoughts are really not good they cause anxiety and it reflects in personality since we might change our feeling to the things we used to to it feels like we are trapped in this forever, i've been suffering from OCD this i was little but it wasn't until i was 21 when i really got out of control im 25 now and some of the thoughts and the rituals still liv with me and i have to cope with then however, if you feel you must seek for professional help i recommend you to do it..but also try to relax there are thousand of people living with ocd and who have to deal with those death thoughts and lots of things more.. try to relax, keep your mind busy so you have no space for OCD like joining practicing any sports, listing music, playing guitar is good specially if you have friends who are also into music join them ang have fun you know, excessive,music and relaxing good ways of reducing the anxiety level.. the most important thing look for God,he knows our hearts and he wants you to talk to him. when you feel you cant go on put yourself in his hands you will see wonderful things.
i wish i could be more helpful to you...any ways i wish you the best