perfect

I had a perfect dream last night, the girl (which I was talking about before the one I hooked up with - my friend whos close) and I were together and fooling around and it felt perfect and when I woke up I said I wish that happened in real life.

However, another spike when I came onto this forum and the new guy with the HOCD problem - forgot his name, said that he'd never thought about guys, and I'd only thought about them a couple of times (a few times whilst masturbating to experiment - I think) but it still spiked me because the question arose in my mind, how can I be perfectly heterosexual if I've thought about guys sexually - only 3 or 4 times and I stopped after the 4th because I became so ashamed and embarrassed. I don't get it?

I want to be the guy in the first paragraph - the perfect heterosexual
Not the guy in the second paragraph - the homosexual

The guys in both phrases are hetrosexual.

How many times have you mastrubated ? 1000? 2000? More ?
If you mastrubate 20/1000times to guys then i fail to see what the problem is.

Also , there are hetrosexuals that actually have had sex with guys and are not gay and not bi.
They were experimentig, trying to see how it is.
Alot of people in puberty do that.

And you just mastrubated a few times on them, if you told me that you mastrubated 1/2 times on guys then you would be gay/bi.

Also HOCD has no steady terms, they are a little different for everyone.
And as i said you look alot like me, also about this.

Relax

I don't know lost count over 200 probably, it's just those 5 times are scaring me now, can't remember how many might be more, certainly wasnt over 12 times or something.

Ok thanks, I wish someone else would try and help me on here, there's only you and that's one persons opinion

I want to be the first guy, I've been thinking about this ALL day and I would be happy if I started meeting her, because I've kind of always had a soft spot for her, she's beautiful but way out of my league (12 rejections) would show that, I want rid of that second consience

I watched Johnny English Reborn today (this sounds cheesy) but I saw Johnny and the woman kissing and thought that will never happen to me I will never kiss a girl and freaked out, I will try and accept it, I just can't anyone got any tips to accept it?

Nothing about being human is "perfect," and the sooner you accept that, the better off you'll be. In a happy relationship, people love each other as they are, imperfections in all. A lot of girls are as insecure as you are, thinking they'll never have boyfriends because they're not good enough for any boy, but you might not think that if you got to know one of them.

I can't find any girl that wants me, something like 12 rejections in the past 4 years doesn't bode well either