Intrusive Thoughts and Praying to God

Im 16 this year. I supposedly i had OCD( im not even sure if i had got, guessed i had lost all my self confident that i cant even be sure for something that i know well of )

Whenever i am making a prayer to god, somehow my mind would be saying SO*( that b word) ,I just had no idea, and im really lost, and then whenever i said that in my mind, i would repeat the prayer again, and sometimes i said it a few times but still that (saying, SO*) keep going into my mind..

Is this a system of of intrusive order?

And also whenever someone is good to me, doing pair work with me, somehow again inside my mind, i would be thinking all sorts of hurtful, insulting kind of stuff to him, I really DID not mean it at all, Seriously but it just keep appearing in my mind. Intrusive Thoughts/OCD?

And lastly the most important, would God punish me when i had got all this kind of thinking and thoughts when im praying to god?.. ( i even had some bad thoughts about god, i really had no idea. i really did not mean it at all )

Can anyone explain to me in detail? im real lost.. everything just feel so stressed up

Thanks.

You wanna know what you sound like? - To me, you sound like a person who is on the edge of falling into OCD. The intrusive thoughts you have are common start point sto people who eventually develop OCD. They worry about the thoughts - beginning to gradually obsess over them - and then they feel that they have to do something to get rid of the intrusive thought. Like, they might have to touch a door-knob, flick a light-switch, or count to a certain number a few times. None of it really works, because by worrying about the obsession it just comes back again soon.

Oh. Then would god punish me in any way ( by giving me bad results) kind of stuff?

I really dint mean it seriously

You have to accept the thoughts. If you keep fight them they'll just come back stronger.

xxlonerxx wrote:Oh. Then would god punish me in any way ( by giving me bad results) kind of stuff?

I really dint mean it seriously

No-one is - or will - punish you. If anything, you are punishing yourself right now. Please try to see the big picture and realise that things are not as bad as they could be. Anxious says to 'accept' the thoughts, and I agree wholeheartedly with that. Instead of fighting or being fearful of them, look them straight in the eye and analyse them. Accept them and sit down with them to 'talk'.

Kevin

I have been starting to accept and ignoring all this thoughts coming to me as my exam are nearing ..

But would god punish me for all this kind of thoughts? even some of it is related to god? thanks

As I am aware from literature and religion class in school, God punishes no-one. Also, this is going to sound ironic but - despite the fact that I do'nt believe in Him - I know that God forgives you and is not angry.

Kevin

If you dont mind me asking how do you accept intrusive thoughts that are violent? If i think about them im afraid i might act upon them so i try however possible to stop them fast.

i mean i accept the fact that i keep having those thoughts, but i knew that i did not mean it all

Listen son, and listen good. Your parents were far to strict with you, and you internalized threatening representations of them that are clearly causing you a lot of grief. Your fear that God will punish you for bad thoughts toward others is really the internalized voice of your parents. In other words, your superego is FAR too strict, and you need to chill out. Everyone has "bad" thoughts, but as long as you don't act on them no punishment will ensue.

If you want this problem to go away, I recommend you first acknowledge that 1) your parents were too strict with you and it's not your fault you're this way, 2) you may harbor negative feelings toward your parents and this is ok and normal, and 3) there is not a punitive, judgmental omnipresent entity listening to your every thought. Just try acknowledging the things that I have outlined for you, and I'm confident that your obsessions and compulsions will stop.

M.D