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Hi 2345623461431

What you are feeling makes perfect sense. I experience the same feeling at times. It's a bit confusing as well though. I dislike the feeling of resignation that it requires, but in some way it also relieves me of my compulsions, if just for a little while.

I have a little trick though. In my mind, I draw lines that overlay things in real life. Anything on my side of the lines have to be under my control and only my control 100% of the time. Anything on the other side I just leave to chaos. If I find that I am unable to control everything within my lines, then I just draw them in closer and closer to myself until I have a clean area that only I manipulate. I hope that makes sense. It helps I think. How have things been lately? Are things still stressful where you are?

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Hi. Glad to hear you aren't stressed too much.

The avatar comes from the collection of Edward S Curtis, a photographer of the American West and of Native American peoples. The photo from my avatar is Lucille, Dakota Sioux of 1907. I have a great fondness for primitive people and their way of life.

Well it is a very beautiful person.