OCD made me to lose interest in sex : suicidal

well I feel very embarrassed to even type this, anyway here it goes. well I used to be very hyper sexual guy and always like sex and when ever i see any adult women i would fantasize them ( like any other teen guy I guess)

also I don't prefer a hairy vagina while watching porn. well I don't know why but i always liked either a bald or shaved vagina. but I never had any problem with hairy vaginas too.

but recently, I started to get a false memories that I have never liked hairy vagina all my life and i the memory tells me I am grossed out by it. ( i had no problem with it, I just don't prefer it) i started to freak out and for testing I gone into a porn site and specifically masturbated to videos which has the women have a hariy vagina. well I was able to masturbate to it, but after masturbating to it, i started to feel like I hate hairy vagina and i grossed out by it. It freaks me out and I feel like I never get my attraction to hairy vagina back. I don't know what to do.

also i read someone wrote that only pedophiles like shaved vagina because that is what a pre pubscent's part look like and it freaks me out. am I turning into a pedophile? someone please help.

It's important to know that false memories are capable to confuse us a lot more. You don't have to like hairy vaginas. There are some men out there that are not into hairy vaginas. If you like hairy vaginas, that's okay, too. Also, there's no way to determine if a person is a pedophile, just because they're into shaved vaginas.