Relationship OCD; How do you cope?

Hi All,

I posted here months ago and am back after a recent flare up of my Pure OCD.

Long story short, there's a girl who I used to have a huge crush on. Always wanted to go out with her, tried to talk to her, get starstruck around her, etc. Lately, we've been talking and interacting more one on one (she's a friend of a mutual friend) and my OCD has started acting up.

I've started questioning whether I even like her, which spirals and spirals and it feels like I don't feel anything towards her anymore. I know that this is just due to my emotions being choked off with my anxiety/second guessing, but it really sucks. Sometimes I get hints that she might be interested back, and I feel like I'm going to completely ruin any chance I might have due to my second guessing and anxious thoughts. Lately my homosexual OCD has been flaring up in conjunction with all of this as well, which has my mind in an absolute knot. I don't feel any sort of attraction or sexual tension with anything these days because I'm so anxious, so now my mind is even spinning the tale of being asexual (not that there is anything wrong with any of that!).

All my life I've just wanted to fall in love, get married, share my life. Sometimes it's really difficult to see the light at the end of the tunnel in that regard... Does anyone else experience ROCD, and how do you cope?