Hocd symptoms. Can anyone relate?

I'll try to make this as short as possible. This is how HOCD affects me on a daily basis now. My HOCD used to be much milder and would only come around maybe once a year and I would easily shrug it off. Btw, I really have nothing against homosexuals at all. I might seem blunt, but it's just because I don't want to get misunderstood.

* My brain tries to convince me that I like every guy I see: It doesn't matter how he looks, his personality or his age (between 15 and 50), I will find all of them attractive. I have never seen these guys before. I tend to seek people I don't find attractive at all when socializing, but sooner or later I will find them attractive too. It's all in an none-sexual way (I've never been turned on by men). More like "Why does that guy suddenly look so good to me?". I see that he isn't really good looking, but somehow I seem to really like him... I didn't use to notice guys at all.
*the transition from not-hocd to hocd was extreme: two weeks before I panicked I would maybe see one guy a day that I thought was objectively attractive, but it felt so objectively and not like I "felt it" and didn't bring me any anxiety. Two weeks later I found almost every guy good looking and now none of them seemed objective. A lot of these guys I now found attractive where guys I'd known for a while and never thought about that way earlier. It's like I have no scale to rate guys, they all seem like "10's", but I don't know why. The feeling is so intense that I can't take it seriously. Feeling like I'm falling in love with any guy I see, really? That's absurd.

*My attraction to girls is very different; the feelings are much less intense, but feels a lot better and has nothing to do with anxiety. When I see a girl I like appearance-wise, I WANT to look at her and I take notice of everything she does. everything she does seem cute or "perfect" in some kind of way and I want to get closer to her. Many girls I just like because they turn me on and I pay attention to their bodies and fantasize about how it would be to do things to her. Some of them I really think I could have been able to have a relationship with, maybe 2-3 of the girls in my class, and that seem pretty normal to me(?). The guys I've been friends with have never seemed to be more attracted to girls than me, though a lot of other guys have. I think that "being in love"-feeling is based on personality. Most of my friends are introverts and have never been "crazy in love".

* There's always that one guy I feel is special and I "have to" stare at him: If it's me, a friend and a friend of his who hangs out, it's his friend I panic over and I feel NOTHING for my friend. BUT if the friend of his leaves, everything I felt for the friend is suddenly passed over to my friend. It didn't use to be like this. So, there's always one guy I panic over. It can be my brother, my uncle, a random hobo begging for money.

* No idea who "I like", because an unattractive dude is as attractive to me as a real "hunk": most of the guys I panic about is "losers" who most people would say was really unattractive. Attractive males I actually don't have a problem with and feel little to no attraction towards them.

* When it comes to sex/porn/fantazing guys haven't entered the picture at all. When I get horny it's all about girls. As a matter of fact that's why I fail NoFap, because whenever I am turned on I feel like my old self again, and everything about HOCD disappears.

*checking everything and everyone: I notice every girl/women and boy/man when I'm outside. My eyes just slides from one face to the next and. "oh, I'd love to bang her", "why does that unattractive guy look so good to me?", "she's good looking, but for some reason I don't find her attractive. I must be gay", and so on.

*Everything regarding men happens when I have eye contact with them: I've never panicked over someone wearing glasses, even if they're half naked. It's just their face I react to, and the only thing that matters seems to be their gender. If I make eye-contact with a dude my brain tells me I'm falling for him. Period. Doesn't matter who it is. Also, I never spent a second thinking about guys, fantazising about them, day-dreaming and so on. I guess that's why I never took it seriously untill now, because it seemed so random and weird.

*I suspect A LOT of guys are gay: I never used to notice if guys where effeminat or not, but now I feel like everyone shows signs of being gay. Seriously, in my class at the university (I don't know most people in my class) I think that maybe 60-70% of them could possible be gay. I take notice of everything "gay", so a possible gay is scary..

*Hocd has made me scared of guys and ruined "friends" for me. I avoid guys and find it really hard to make friend with new people.

*Hocd has seperated me from rest of the "guys": It's like you have women, men, and then you have me. I want to have sex with the girls and approval from the guys, but I end up in the middle; I have a lot boring conversations with girls who I mainly want to be liked by and have sex with, and I feel inferior to the guys so I avoid them.

*constantly analyzing and rating my girlfriend and what we do: over analyzing kissing, sex, her appearance, my attraction towards her, is the sex good just because it's sex, or because of her. Btw, our relationship is great. I write a lot about other girls, but this is just part of my "checking". I would never ever cheat on her.

* does not impact my attraction to real girls. When I masturbate several times a day I wouldn't have much urges for real girls, but after I realized how this impacted me I would do it less often. If I go a couple of days without the amount of girls I feel attractive (which I really enjoy) sky-rockets. Actually I get so turned on by real womens, also more by their personality then usual, when I don't masturbate that after a while the fear of cheating because of it is bigger than HOCD itself. As I said, as long as I'm turned on and not "drained" sexually, I feel great and can't believe I even thought about being gay some days ago..

*all the "is this normal", questioning, googling, and so on: I will create future search-words while doing other stuff, that I just can't wait to check out. I'm sure I've read every Hocd-thread there is like 10 times. "Is it normal to not want sex every day", "is it normal to notice my girlfriends breath while kissing", "do I love my girlfriend enough" and so on.