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Paranoid of going to prison, thoughts keep assaulting me?

Postby ThoughtsSprinting » Wed May 23, 2018 1:44 am

I'm very stupid and I feel as if I've completely ruined my life or something.

Basically, I'm afraid I will be taken to prison for being labeled as a pedophile. On social media, there's a masive community of roleplayers, who use accounts as their fictional roleplay characters and make posts incharacter with each other.

We don't exchange names, locations, ages, pictures, nothing. All we focus on is the roleplay, as I prefer to keep anonymous. Clearly, the roleplays are of sexual nature, always involving adult characters. However, I was stupid enough to tell some people a bit about my real life, including a name and one of my social media, plus a photo of my face.

Well, I was dismayed to find out that some of the writers were underage and I had roleplayed with them. Now I briefly looked it up and I could go to prison for something like this, as the judge can interpret it as text with sexual intent with a minor.

Once I learned this, I completely deleted my accounts and disappeared from the scene. However, before I did, I had developed friendships with writers who were at least 18 and had told some of them my experience with the underage writers. Before deleting my accounts, I added them in other social media to keep in contact as well.

Now I feel like I screwed up big time. I know how merciless US laws are when it comes to these things. I'm convinced they'd just yell PEDOPHILE at me and punish me accordingly. I legitimately didn't want this to happen, I just wanted to engage in escapism with fictional characters because I have a terrible love life.

Now I'm constantly paranoid the online friends I made will betray me and out me to the police. Or that the ones I didn't tell will somehow ask around and find out and out me to the cops. No matter what I do, the result is the same. I end up fearing the cops will come knocking on my door and taking me to trial that I will for a fact lose. I keep thinking they'll SOMEHOW investigate why I vanished, put two and two together, do detective work on accounts I used to roleplay with, and gather enough info to report me. Some of them have no idea why I even left, as I only told two people I was close with online.

What do I do? My life is suffering because of this. I can't focus on my daily tasks and this has been going on for months now, getting worse and worse. Even posting here makes me afraid one of you will somehow discover my identity and report me. I just want to be at peace and live life normally again.

I am 22 years old, by the way.
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Re: Paranoid of going to prison, thoughts keep assaulting me?

Postby Snaga » Wed May 23, 2018 7:33 am

What to do, is the only thing you can do, and that is to let it go.

Until you know, you cannot know the identity of the other person, or their age, online. Short of somehow purging the internet of all minors, there's not much we can do about the risk.

You're just going to have to take on faith that nothing will happen. Think of the sheer volume of such communication. Once you knew there were minors involved, you ceased. Presumably you told your friends that. And what about them, anyway? Who's to say they haven't talked with minors also, in the RP context? Honestly, all RP, games, everything would have to be shut down to avoid this. Good luck on that to any one who tries.
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Re: Paranoid of going to prison, thoughts keep assaulting me?

Postby ThoughtsSprinting » Wed May 23, 2018 2:25 pm

Thank you. I suppose talking it over with somebody else helps. I will try my best to hold onto faith that this is just the past now, and it won't be coming back.
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