Need answers about HOCD

hello,
I want to understand whats happening with me right now.
10 days ago, I thought I may be gay. At first two days I had anxiety. Did everything HOCD sufferer would do. (checked nude photos of girls and mans to see who I like, googled about suddenly turning gay and asked in forums that Can I turn gay at age of 22)
Than found HOCD in internet, I thought I suffer from it. I have that thought in my mind 24/7, and its makes me nervous, but I dont know if I have anxiety anymore. I lost attraction to girls, even when I had crush only on girls before. Now I think Im really turning gay, because I have no anxiety and Im not doing compulsions. (I think I did it before, but only for 1-2 days. Still checking girls in instagram, I want to know I like them or not.. and often I was in my past searching for things to see clear. (for exemple I told myself I had crush on girls, I cant be gay. Now I dont even know what I felt to girls before) but im not sure Im doing it anymore) I know it can be the backdoor spike. I dont know. I fear Im in denial..
I have some questions.

It is possible to have no anxiety just after 10 days? that means Im recovering or that means Im gay? Is it possible to recover that fast?
Can it be HOCD or I must be gay?
If I dont have anxiety anymore how a psychologist can help me?
Im 22 years old, If Im gay, wouldnt I feel something to guys before? (wouldnt I fell inlove with someone?)
I just know one thing, I dont want to be gay, I dont want to be with guys.

Hi Valami7

I have had Hocd for almost a Year. Somedays i had anxiety other days i didn’t. You lost your attraction to girls because your mind is a strong thing. Even when you know deep down you are not gay, it makes you feel like you are. But i can tell you, you aren’t. If you were gay you would have known it years earlier.

It al started with the thought “i might be gay” i think eveyone have thoughts like this but people with ocd can make an obsession about it and wil feel like you do right know. You will be fine!!

I have had it for a long time, trust me i know how you feel. I started medication and everything went away.

I'm 31, suffered from OCD since I was about 8 and have suffered from HOCD since age 19.

1. Anxiety comes and goes. I don't know if you're recovering but I recommend you see a therapist.
2. I think this is a mental issue, not a sexual orientation issue
3. Congrats if you no longer suffer from intrusive thoughts. However, see a therapist if these thoughts return.