obsessive thoughts over my late mother. help.

Hi guys, i am new to this space. Smiley Happy

I have been suffering from OCD since i was a kid and it's since then been on and off - sometimes moderate, sometimes it drives me crazy. i have since learned to resist physical compulsions so now it's all in my head.

My mother passed away more than a year ago but recently in this few months my OCD rocketed - no matter what i do or where i am, i get intrusive thoughts over my mother. my 'compulsions' are mostly mental where i have to assure myself, reason things out, and so on...

The worst thing is, my OCD thoughts often include 'realistic' things like past events where i made my mother upset, etc.. these thoughts i can't ignore, if not i will feel guilty. i often have to list out reasons and justifications. for example, i could be eating spaghetti and i get reminded of how i used to complain about the spaghetti my mother cooked. then i would start reasoning to myself things like "its okay she would forgive me because....." and so on.

having dealt with ocd for so many years and overcoming physical compulsions, i find this time really tough as it involves my very own mother, something personal to me..



(also i used to take medication, i've since stoopped when i got better, i think i will go bac to the doctors to get it restocked)

Thanks guys for listening. I dont have anyone to tell.

I've noticed a little bit of overlap between folks that post in remorse, and OCD-style behaviour. I know I have had regrets when loved ones, pets, pass away. And if I let myself, I'm pretty sure I could find myself beating myself over things, again and again.

I hope that the meds will help. Also remind yourself we all have regrets, we will all have things we would undo, if we could, when we lose a loved one.

Snaga wrote:I've noticed a little bit of overlap between folks that post in remorse, and OCD-style behaviour. I know I have had regrets when loved ones, pets, pass away. And if I let myself, I'm pretty sure I could find myself beating myself over things, again and again.

I hope that the meds will help. Also remind yourself we all have regrets, we will all have things we would undo, if we could, when we lose a loved one.

Thank you so much, m trying my best. But they also include random intrusive thoughts and its tough because it’s my mother and it makes me feel so ashamed. But I’m going for the appointment for the medicine soon and I hope it helps too

I know it's hard to ignore the thoughts, but for me, that's what it takes... at some point, you have to stop caring about it. The past is the past, and all we can do is try to be better persons because of the past. I hope the meds help with the thoughts.