Really Can't Cope, I Think I Am Transgender

I really can't cope, I think my OCD is actually real and I am transgender.

I didn't really want to be but I can't help what I am and I think I am actually trans afterall.

For years I have not been sure if it is OCD or me actually being trans but I think I could actually be trans.

My next therapy appointment is Monday so I will raise my concerns with my therapist then.

I am really scared and confused.

When I pull down my boxers I do get a slight uncomfortable feeling, I think I am trans.

Please can anybody help me?????

I’ve been following your posts for a really long time and I do not think you are trans. Obviously the genital sensations can be caused by OCD, as many other people in the forums have stated. From my understanding, the idea of being trans to a transgender person isn’t really consumed with doubt and fear. Yea, they fear coming out and the reactions of others, but they KNOW they are trans. There isn’t much doubt.

If anything you could be non-binary, genderfluid, or gender non-conforming. However, MTF Transgender? I don’t think so.

sickofbeinginvalid wrote:I’ve been following your posts for a really long time and I do not think you are trans. Obviously the genital sensations can be caused by OCD, as many other people in the forums have stated. From my understanding, the idea of being trans to a transgender person isn’t really consumed with doubt and fear. Yea, they fear coming out and the reactions of others, but they KNOW they are trans. There isn’t much doubt.

If anything you could be non-binary, genderfluid, or gender non-conforming. However, MTF Transgender? I don’t think so.

Thansk for your post, I really hope you are right and I'm not really MTF.

I'm really struggling with my OCD at the moment, it is holding my life up as I don't know if it is true or not and it is really difficult to deal with.

I have thoughts saying I am transsexual and I don't know if they are true or not and it is really scaring me. I don't want it to be true but I don't know if it is OCD or if I just have internalised transphobia and don't truly accept myself.

It is tearing me apart as if I am a transsexual then I have to transition and change my body to female but if it is just intrusive thoughts then I get to stay as male and live my life as I have been.

For the record I have been diagnosed with OCD and I am going through CBT at the moment. Also I have had other intrusive thoughts including POCD, incest, harming others and other weird things.

However as all people get intrusive thoughts from time to time then I could just be a transsexual who doesn't accept themselves that has OCD about other things or who just gets regular intrusive thoughts.

This is really destroying me and I can't cope.

I would rather stay as a man but if I am truly trans then I don't want to repress myself so it is difficult.

I am just in so much pain :'(

FreshGuy wrote:I would rather stay as a man but if I am truly trans then I don't want to repress myself so it is difficult

Then obviously you’re not trans. Would you rather stay a man because it’s easier and you don’t mind being one, or because you don’t want to face the backlash of being trans?

-- Sun Feb 18, 2018 8:19 am --

FreshGuy wrote:I would rather stay as a man but if I am truly trans then I don't want to repress myself so it is difficult

Then obviously you’re not trans. Would you rather stay a man because it’s easier and you don’t mind being one, or because you don’t want to face the backlash of being trans?

sickofbeinginvalid wrote:

FreshGuy wrote:I would rather stay as a man but if I am truly trans then I don't want to repress myself so it is difficult

Then obviously you’re not trans. Would you rather stay a man because it’s easier and you don’t mind being one, or because you don’t want to face the backlash of being trans?

-- Sun Feb 18, 2018 8:19 am --

FreshGuy wrote:I would rather stay as a man but if I am truly trans then I don't want to repress myself so it is difficult

Then obviously you’re not trans. Would you rather stay a man because it’s easier and you don’t mind being one, or because you don’t want to face the backlash of being trans?

It's not cos of the backlash, at least I don't think it is. I think it is cos I don't want to be.

But I could just be in a state of semi-denial so I don't know.

FreshGuy wrote:It's not cos of the backlash, at least I don't think it is. I think it is cos I don't want to be..

Yeah, I feel that way too. I never wanted to be a woman and still don’t, but i’m not sure if it’s backlash or because I just don’t want to be a woman...