Magical thinking with time taking over my thoughts, super di

I've been diagnosed with OCD but was told that I'm on the lower end of the spectrum. I've had Generalized anxiety disorder all my life.

Basically, about 7 years ago, during an extremely distressing time in my life, i began assigning special meanings to certain numbers when I'd check the time. I was heartbroken after a break up, got laid off/was flunking out of a program, and my father was ill in the hospital. So while ruminating, I would check the time and thought "if I look at the time, and it's 6 minutes, 16 mins, 26 mins, 36 mins (and so on) after the hour, it's a BAD sign. If it's 8 mins, 18, 28, 38 and so on, it's a GOOD sign". If I think of my ex and look at the clock, and it's one of those numbers, it means he's OVER ME. I'd had a strong hunch via social media that a couple months later, he'd already begun dating a new girl. So I thought, If I wonder if he's with this new chick, and I look at the time, and it's 8/18/28/38/48/58 mins past the hour, then that CONFIRMS that he is.

Well, it seemed to come true to me. He and I did not get back together (which is a good thing now, but at the time, I was devastated), and he ended up with the girl (they're now married with a kid). As crazy as this sounds, I convinced myself that I had psychic abilities and that I'm able to predict outcomes.

This comes and goes in waves, but when it's at full force, as it is now, I find it VERY intrusive and distressing. When something is up in the air, and I don't know the outcome of it, it scares me, and I start doing this.

I have been jumping to the worst case scenario for most of my life, assuming the worst in situation and in people, rarely giving people the benefit of the doubt. I've been let down, and I often focus on that. I'd also been keeping men at an arms length, pushing away the ones who want to get close to me, and chasing/romanticizing the unavailable ones.

Up til recently. I did some reflecting, and asked myself what I truly want. I decided to become less picky/rigid, and give a couple of good, nice guys a chance. Lo and behold, I've hit it off with a guy I was on the fence with in the beginning, who chased me. Things are going well. He's genuinely interested in me, we have chemistry, want the same things.

But I cannot stop checking the time. I keep seeing 6's, and it's upsetting and distressing me. I then think "of course, why would this work out?? Nothing has worked out for me recently, so why should this? Why would this guy like a mess like me?" It's so difficult to unlearn this pattern/way of thinking.

If anyone has ANY suggestions/input/help /strategies/ recommendations/readings, anything please let me know.

Thank you.

I went through the same thing over winter break and this started manifesting over the summer. FOr me it wasn't 6, but a different number, but when I saw this number ( and it kept popping up) I would be convinced that I could predict that something bad would happen to another person who I cared about. What got me to get over this magical thinking was being more aware of it. I started noticing that even though this number in particular comes up a lot, there are a lot of GOOD things that happen too. And since I was so obsessed with only focusing on the bad, I couldn't see that I was selectively reinforcing my magical thinking.