Help

Okay this is going to be kind of long.I've had hocd for 5 months now.And everyday my HOCD like updates itself,everyday it comes up with more proof that I'm Bi.So yesterday I just decided just to accept myself as bi.But it feels so wierd,I tried to think about the same gender but it felt so foreign and so strange I wasn't sure if i really wanted it.Another thing I can't get romantically attached to girls,but then again I could bi sexual heteroromantic.So yeah,I tried to watch lesbian porn get turned on(or maybe it was groinal response) but it was disgusting and made me uncomfortable.I try to accept that I'm Bi but thinking about same sex makes me feel weird.Now I'm ready to accept myself but a lot of things are not supporting that

Your post makes 0 sense all the way around. Too many self contradictions over and over again.