OCD Jumping on new things?

Hey,

I'd just like to ask for some help. It seems that because I have now (once again) silenced my TOCD in the sense of being secretly a woman, the TOCD has taken a new form of some "In the middle" genders. When I was reading other people's TOCD stories I saw the mention of a number of different gender titles and part of my compulsions have been researching different identities, just like how people afraid of illnesses research those.

See - the reason why this is so confusing is because on some of the definitions of these genders, it says that there may be no actual dysphoria which made me spike real bad, because then theres no actual proof when I'm in my all-anxiety state because the OCD makes the fear seem so real?

All my life i've identified (and felt) like I've been a boy, and have always liked presenting myself as a boy and I wouldn't have questioned it if it wasn't for that original OCD spike.

So, do you think that this is just OCD not wanting to give me a break? It feels alot like the rest of OCD - read something, what if that's me, anxiety, research it, ask for reassurance.

If anyone else has experienced these awful OCD tricks, please message me? Thanks

yes.

it is probably your OCD looking for new ways to use your discomfort to continue feeding your discomfort. your OCD will feed on any chance it has to leave you without "proof" of your gender.

you do not need to have proof of your gender. you have your choices on how to act on it, and if you do not want to do girlish things or be a girl or be any other kind of gender, even if you "really are" another gender, it does not matter. you pick how you manifest.