Is Avoidance Out of the Question?

So as you may know, I have intrusive thoughts involving being bullied. My solution is to distract.

I'm a hedonist. I think pleasure is the most important aim. I distract myself with positive activities like interesting books and websites.

My motto is "fuggit." That helps me cope with the bullying thoughts and difficult people in real life.

But I'm still a loner. I fear a lot criticism from people, like for being a hedonist, which most people assume is drunken lascivious debauchery. When I even consider the possibility of socializing a lot and interacting more, the intrusive thoughts increase ten-fold. It gets out of hand. Like earlier, I had intrusive thoughts that someone forced me to have kids and then judged my parenting skills.

Do I remain in loner mode?

I don't understand everything you said but for me being alone is dangerous. I need people.

I will never judge you. I believe in freedom of choice. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

Amanda

CityMouse wrote:So as you may know, I have intrusive thoughts involving being bullied. My solution is to distract.

Same here.

I'm a hedonist. I think pleasure is the most important aim. I distract myself with positive activities like interesting books and websites.

Same here.

My motto is "fuggit." That helps me cope with the bullying thoughts and difficult people in real life.

I'm glad that you're managing to cope. I wish it was that simple for me.

But I'm still a loner.

Same here, for the most part. I choose not to get involved with people for long because most of them rub me the wrong way. There's only a couple people in my life that I can be around and tolerate.

I fear a lot criticism from people, like for being a hedonist, which most people assume is drunken lascivious debauchery.

Same here. I get very anxious and irritated by criticism most of the time, because most of it is harsh and because I don't agree with most of it.

When I even consider the possibility of socializing a lot and interacting more, the intrusive thoughts increase ten-fold. It gets out of hand.

Same here.

Like earlier, I had intrusive thoughts that someone forced me to have kids and then judged my parenting skills.

I've never had an intrusive thought like that, but I can understand how that would make you feel anxious. Intrusive thoughts suck.

Do I remain in loner mode?

I hope you can find a way to cope better. I don't know what your situation is, so I don't want to give you much advice but I'm seeing a psychiatrist for my problems.