Is this proof I could have pedophillia?

So first of all, lately I feel really bad about all kinds of stuff and its been a long while since I masturbated because I dont seem to get horny.

I was laying on the couch with my eyes closed trying to take a nap and was thinking of all sorts of things including my (I hope it is) POCD. So I imagined a sexual scenario with myself and a child to see my reaction and I didnt even feel that disgusted? And I got a feeling in my penis and when I looked there was a bit of precum(?) there?? I did the same with thinking of me and a normal person and I didnt get a feeling in my penis..

I didnt even panicked/got anxious while thinking of the pedo thoughts.. Is this possibly pedophillia? Because I didnt get a feeling in my penis when thinking of normal sex scenarios.

I was never very succesful with getting a partner etc so maybe I turned to kids because of that?? Help me please is this a sign of pedophillia, I want honest answers..

-- Wed Nov 09, 2016 2:09 pm --

And I know it sounds OCD but I DONT get these feelings when thinking of normal sexual thoughts..

Also does anyone have an explanation for this? I dont seem to get turned on by normal sexual thoughts..

Anyone?

Only a qualified physician or mental health professional with the legal authority to diagnose and who is in a position to evaluate your history and current symptoms can provide you with a diagnosis.

Yes but I want opinions from others.. With my psychologist I have not yet told her about the pedo stuff but we talked about how I experience my thoughts and she thinks it's OCD. But Im scared when I tell her about my history etc she will say its maybe real pedophillia..

Well, you're stuck where you are, sweetie. You know my feelings on this. She's being paid to help you, but you're withholding information. It's like going to the physical doctor, but you won't tell him where it hurts....