POCD Ephebophile???

Hello guys I could really use some help. I've had OCD for very long and all themes have tortured me. I'm having a lot of trouble with thoughts about attraction. I'm 20 years old and I seem to find people from age 16 to early 20s most attractive and I can only really see myself dating someone from 18 to 23. I feel like something must be wrong with me. Shouldn't 20 year olds only be attracted and want to date people older? I don't find a lot of people in their late 20s attractive and I seem to be interested in mostly people my age or 2 years younger. But then my mind also makes me doubt that I like anybody who's an adult which freaks me out with panic! My mind is even saying I'm lying by writing this, I'm worrying that what if I have attraction to only teens who are young. I would never do anything with anybody under 18, even 18 is skeptical... I have high morals and I wish I only cared about people who are like 25 and older. I got over POCD in terms of being about children because I don't find kids attractive and I could tell that was irrational and OCD in the end but I can't get over this Ephebophile thing. Is what I've described normal? I already have therapy for so many other issues and it's making me feel sick to think I now need a therapist to stop my Ephebophilia. Why am I rarely into proper older adults? I want to die I must have severe issues. I'd rather be dead than be this horrible thing....

I live in a country where the age of consent is 16. You find 16 year olds attractive - so what? A 40 year old could legally have a sexual relationship with a 16 year old here. You're only 20 yourself, so there isn't anything weird about this.

You managed to get over POCD and now this new obsession has replaced it and this is just OCD weaving a tissue of bull $#%^ out of thin air and creating a problem out of something that is totally innocent and normal.

You aren't a monster. I think most people do find young adults attractive. It's just biology. Keep reminding yourself that it's not you, it's the OCD.

I don't think there's anything weird or wrong with what you just described. It sounds like you are scrutinizing your thoughts and reactions way too carefully and holding yourself to a totally unreasonable standard. Like, there's no reason to expect yourself to only be attracted to people 5 or more years older than yourself, and literally anyone will tell you being most attracted to people around your same age is completely healthy and normal.

Even if you do have some feelings of attraction to 16-17 year olds, you are aware of the fact that age gaps like that make for unhealthy relationships and you said yourself you wouldn't pursue or date anyone underage. That's all that really matters! I know OCD makes it hard but I think this is definitely something it's ok to let go and stop worrying about.