*TW* What are your Obsessions & Compulsions?

I hope this topic is okay to make but I thought maybe it'd be a good way to share your experiences, relate to other people, laugh at ourselves, self reflect and maybe get some stuff out of our heads and off our chests. I'm hoping this can turn into kind of a healthy way for everyone to reflect back on our OCD with a more open and analytical mind rather than judgement aimed at ourselves for our involuntary experiences.

I'm gonna post mine later I just don't have time right now but anyone feel free to post yours for the time being

I have loads but one of my main ones involves sex. I guess it is kind of laughable. I'm convinced because of something I read that if we don't do it once a week there is something wrong with the relationship and we'll break up. I realise it's a bit silly but it's truly lodged in my head. So much so that once it gets to the weekend I start to nag my wife, because I also worry if I don't keep mentioning it it won't happen. It drives her mad because I'm constantly going 'are we going to have sex? When will we have sex?' and if she complains about being tired I'll panic and force her to have a nap so she's not too tired etc. I know it's OCD because half the time I don't actually want it, I just feel like we NEED it- so much so that sometimes I'm in tears because I don't want to do it but I have to.

It's got better lately as my wife has been better with sex after the wedding- she generally has a low sex drive but things are better now. But the minute we don't do it one weekend it will be back.

i've probably had hundred themes of obsessions and compulsions.. they are mainly related to magical thinking,identity,existence,security/safety,meaning of life..

The biggest one has always been harm thoughts, of myself and others. I will think about killing a significant other. Usually as I'm about to fall asleep. I've learned to ignore it. When I wake up dragging a corpse, then I'll consider I have a problem. Until then OCD has to prove to me I'm capable of unjustified harm.

Magical thinking. Attributing sentience to inanimate objects. A definite belief that harm will come to me if I do things I think are wrong but hurt no one. Checking locks, appliances, etc. Worrying I've done something wrong at work. Accidental harm, usually inadvertently running over 'invisible' people. Accidentally setting the stage for a fire to burn (home, work, etc) down.

Sexuality, but not the usual HOCD, since I've accepted I'm Bi. HOCD Lite, I call it. Usually that I'm really just Gay and fooling myself. Or occasionally that I'm Straight and fooling myself. When the facts point to being both.

Worrying, checking, checking, checking, checking. Fear of fire from cigarettes I put out two weeks ago or electrical equipment spontaneously bursting into flame. Order. Cleanliness and hygiene. Fear of germs from other people. FOOD is a big one. Every can, box or bag brought back from the supermarket is washed or wiped down. Those are the main ones, and I've just scratched the surface with them.

Good idea for a thread. I used to see a doctor who liked for me to tell him my weird obsessions/compulsions for his amusement. He was a decent doctor, so I don't think he was being condescending. Some of the weirder ones are:

Constantly checking the freezer because I can't have any loose plastic bags or anything moving around when the blower is on.

Can't eat peas or anything that moves or rolls on the plate on it's own. Currently making some progress with that one.

Certain areas/appliances have to be kept clean and shiny even when the rest of the house is a mess.

If I am out and somebody rubs against me, I have to make a mental note of where they touched me and clean/sterilize it when I get home. Sometimes the list gets so long and complicated I just wash my clothes and shower as soon as I get home.

Watching boiling water. If I'm making tea, something terrible will happen if the water boils for more than a few seconds.

As for the electricity thing, I used to turn off the main breaker whenever I left the house or went to sleep but I stopped that because it played havoc with my computer and ps3 and I got sick of resetting the clocks twice a day.

Always convinced I've lost my wallet. I check if it's on my pocket, then thirty seconds later I have to check again.

Just a few. Hoping people will be able to laugh at some of their OCD quirks and post them.

I have an obsession that I'm giving off a feeling of sexual tension when I'm speaking to someone. I worry that they think I fancy them and I'm try to flirt and being somehow sexually suggestive. Hence a lot of avoidance and rumination, mental reviewing of events.

I still can't stop wondering whether I accidentally knocked my nephew's crotch with my e-cig, but that will pass!

Cleaning, ordering and routine rituals, certain rooms get cleaned every day and the kitchen bin gets polished every day for example. This all has to be done in the right order and at the right time or else I have to leave it and then repeat it the following day, except on certain days when I have a different cleaning ritual. I don't think anything bad will happen, it's more that I just feel incredible tension and uneasiness building up if it's not done in the right way or gets interrupted.

Exercise has to be done at the right time according to the schedule, or not at all. This scheduling stuff is a pain and inconvenient.

There are a few random bits of junk that I can't seem to throw away even though I want to.

Oh, and the biggie right now is an obsession with personality disorders. There's a few aspects to this, but I've already banged on about it enough. The main compulsion is hours of having to check symptoms online.

Checking work. This is also extremely problematic right now. It's a fear that I'll do something that will cost someone else a lot of money.

I would list all my symptoms BUT I actually worry that listing my symptoms is a compulsion to prove to myself that I have OCD!

Thanks for all your answers so far guys I'm really enjoying this thread. Sorry for replying so late lol just thought I'd list some of mine now since I'm finally done work for the day

I have a lot so I thought it'd be best to only name some of the ongoing recurrent themes and the "biggest ones" (O = obsession, C = compulsions I perform for each obsession) - some of them are really weird imo and confusing/ridiculous (and they contradict like for example I have the one about faking all my mental illnesses yet I have another one about being "too mentally ill for" blank - like ???? lol)

O: Faking all my mental illnesses (including OCD) and trying to manipulate people somehow into believing me so I can hurt them or "use it against them" - I also have one about being a hypochondriac and another one about being a narcissist (idk they're annoying lol)
C: Researching (symptoms, diagnostic criteria, blogs, other things from people diagnosed with the disorders etc.) online, writing lists entailing all the symptoms I suffer from and comparing them to other people and the symptoms of the disorders and trying to re-convince myself I'm not faking (it probably doesn't help that I self-diagnosed some of them and haven't had the chance yet to have a psych re-evaluation due to long waiting lists), reassurance seeking from other people, "checking to see if the symptoms go away on their own" - but of course the obessions come right back anyways so doing that doesn't even really do much to help me feel better

O: Hurting other people, being violent or murdering people or animals, accidentally hurting people but having actual intentions to, manipulating people (also ties into another obsession of being a sociopath) and "just not realizing it yet" or "subconsciously pretending to not be a sociopath or abuser but consciously being in denial"
C: Research symptoms of being a sociopath and "how to see mental illness in yourself" and "how to stop being in denial" and "how to stop being delusional" (which in general is its own separate obsession because I'll get the intrusive obsessions about being "too mentally ill to realize things" - which also has caused other obsessions of its own

O: (^ like this one ->) Getting fired from work or dropping out of college or being deemed "too mentally ill/unfit/incapable to work" (I'm going to college to become a nurse starting in September)
C: Constantly organizing things at work and keeping the desk tidy "so that I won't get yelled at then get fired for being a slob and probably messing everything up and f*cking up important things due to having clutter everywhere", refusing to take lunch breaks or putting off doing anything I should do like going to the washroom etc. out of fear of going and ending up causing something bad to happen while I'm away from the desk (I work as a front desk agent at a hotel currently) or ending up neglecting issues or needing to be there all the time "just in case I need to be there to help if the desk get too busy or in case someone tries to steal/break things/rob us etc.", repeatedly asking if everything's okay or anyone I'm working with needs my help or if there's anything I can fix and constantly rechecking all the arrivals and departures and everything in our online system to make sure that I'm not forgetting or missing anything important (I'll constantly refresh everything or log in then back out "just in case the system or the computer f*cks up and I miss something then end up getting fired for seeming to inattentive or whatever for "not doing anything" etc.", pacing back and forth behind the desk to "make sure I'm alert in case someone comes in and tries to do something bad etc" (I'll fear that something bad will happen if I'm not there at all time "keeping guard" or something (idek it's weird I think lol), I also always look at how to apply for disability and stuff like that all the time online and ruminate about it constantly because of the fear of being deemed too mentally unstable to become a nurse or ending up being kicked out of college or whatever - so basically I do that "in case I don't have anything to fall back on if/when that happens".(I'd say probably my top compulsions are ruminating, researching, list making and reassurance seeking - all of which I have to do multiple multiple times and almost constantly to ever convince myself of any of my obsessions actually being obsessions and not being true things that I just "don't want to admit to")

O: Being watched/followed/stalked/listened to/recorded/watched by other people or by dead people (specifically being my family members or other people I know of or heard of dying) or "ghosts or spirits" (which is weird for me because I don't even really believe in those, although I always get intrusive thoughts about them - I even get intrusive thoughts about "the intrusive thoughts about them being the ghosts or spirits trying to talk to me by trying to convince me mentally about their existence/trying to tell me they're real because they want my attention" etc. Also the ones about being watched or recorded (specifically by cameras) is probably because my dad owns his own security surveillance system so I'll get intrusive thoughts about him "hiding them everywhere to spy on me because he doesn't trust me or to watch everything I'm doing" and him "knowing where they'd be best to hide so I wouldn't see them")
C: Naturally the paranoia of that makes me constantly check everything around me, including my closet and all over my room and in other rooms around the house and I'll even avoid places I know they're not because I can't see them but somehow my brain will try to convince me that they're invisible? (Idek it doesn't make any sense yet it still scares me so idk) and I'll not do certain things like I'll have to check everywhere around me after I'm getting out of the shower and need to put my towel on right away and need to cover everything as I'm getting dressed and need to turn all my cameras (on my phone and laptop) away from facing me and don't go near any reflective surfaces while I'm getting dressed or changing or getting in or out of the shower. I'll also get the obsession whenever I'm out walking anywhere that people are following me so I'll constantly re-check behind me "just in case there's somebody there now that's going to try to rape/kill/hurt/kidnap/steal from me

O: Being sexually attracted to family members and other people (I'm an aromantic asexual so I have a lot of sexual orientation obsessions and ones about being gay and ones about being straight and just generally "not really being aro ace and faking it or pretending to be aro ace or denying sexuality from myself" (which is bullsh*t and I know it but I still can't stop the obsessions from coming back)
C: "Test myself mentally" by purposely trying to picture people while masturbating so I'm "making sure that I have the right reaction of disgust to prove that I'm not attracted to those people" and, avoiding thinking of said family members ever other than that (or repeating words mentally like "no, stop, f*ck off, that's disgusting, leave me alone" etc. whenever the intrusive obsessions come back until I have no more of the thoughts coming back and repeating themselves) for fear of "thinking about them confirming it" (it being the sexual obsessions), checking online repeatedly back to previous sites and things I've used to re-convince myself of my sexual orientation (like blogs and "checklists for knowing you're aromantic and/or asexual")

O: "Being tested/checked on one day randomly" (this can be about numerous things; ex. having police raid my home, having government members "make sure I'm doing things right or not being a threat to society and being socially acceptable enough to keep living" (? like I said some of mine are bizarre and ridiculous lol)
C: Ruminating about what I'd do in that situation, thinking about what they'd "want me to do/think is right" etc (idek this is a weird one that I try to ignore and it isn't as strong of an obsession as my other ones)

O: Having people misinterpret things I say and it causing a disaster/accident/terrible thing etc., to happen
C: Re-explaining everything I try to tell to people, writing lists and tons of things about how to explain what I mean, making sure that I "remember to write down as many details so they won't get confused and then they won't get hurt because of me not doing it right"

Those are the main current ones I can think of off the top of my head (there's a lot more but I'm tired and a bit dissociative right now so I'm going to have to stop there and if there's more I can think of later then I'll add more on this thread)

Anyways if you read this whole thing congratulations and thank you lmao and again thank you for your responses this is really cool