Emptiness and OCD

Since getting back from the marriage and honeymoon I've been struggling with feeling empty. I think I'm the kind of person who always needs something to focus on. Now all that planning is over I feel a bit lost.

It's just struck me that all my problems, depression, OCD and limerence are probably all about trying to fill the empty hole inside of me? Does that make sense? Does anyone else here feel that their OCD is connected with emptiness?

I actually feel that my OCD has got a bit better but maybe it was masking this emptiness and now I'm not sure what to concentrate on and I just feel lost.

Maybe you're not empty, but just don't have such a busy mind right now? If it's the latter enjoy it!

I often feel odd after really big events such as getting married (only been married the once) as I'll be running on adrenaline until it's all over. Do you think there might be a bit of that going on for you?

I get it being normal to a degree but I think it's more in my case. Yesterday I even considered hurting myself to have something else to fill the emptiness.

Sorry to hear that. That is actually quite serious and not a good place to be. Are you feeling depressed?

Are you getting a BPD obsession again? OCD could be making you think this maybe? I get intrusive thoughts about hurting myself, but they really scare me in case I'd really do it. I hope it's OCD in your case and you don't hurt yourself. Can you talk to anyone? You can always talk on this forum though.

Sorry for the questions. I don't mean to give you the Spanish Inquisition.

No need to apologise!

Sorry, didn't mean to be dramatic. The self harm isn't OCD, I used to do it. I won't because last time I did my wife found out and got very upset and made me promise not to do it again. I feel bad enough for her so I'm not going to break the promise. Doesn't mean I don't get the urges.

I tend to punish myself by doing sit-ups compulsively instead now, although that's got a little better since the wedding.

I'm feeling kind of depressed, although I cheered up a bit when my wife texted asking me to come home for sex! Sorry if that's TMI. Thing is that's got better since the wedding which is good but it makes me worry that my main OCD symptom is now gone because we're doing it enough that I don't panic and so I worry that means I don't have OCD.

I do have two really good people I can talk to but I'm a bit annoyed with my other friends. They don't want me to talk about limerence, probably they feel bad for my wife but I can't help obsessing over this other person. I feel guilty about it myself but if they don't let me talk then it all builds up in my head.

Sorry that was a bit of a rant.

I didn't think you were being dramatic. It's just the way you feel right now and that's just the way it is.

Sit ups isn't as bad I guess. At least it's exercise, but compulsive exercise can be a problem. I don't do it to punish myself, but I'm addicted to it I think and get really hung up on routine.

That's great news that your wife sent you that text. I hope that's a sign that things are better in that department. I had a bit of a sex/relationship OCD obsession recently and that's got better.

What you said about how you don't have OCD really resonates with me. I'm having good week and worrying the same!

I'm glad that you have a couple of friends to talk to offline. Try not to take it heart about the other ones not wanting to talk about limerance.

No worries about the rant.

Thank you. I hope your good week continues.