Compulsion to do a compulsion

This is a bit odd... But does anyone else have this?

It stems from my doubt that I have OCD, I think. Example: today I had a meeting with the woman I have a crush on. And I did obsess over her a bit but after the meeting I thought 'I should do sit ups.' But I didn't feel a compulsion to do them. Then I thought 'if I'm not having a compulsion to do sit ups after seeing her, I must not have OCD' then I felt guilty and made myself do them. It's like I had a compulsion to prove to myself that I have OCD. But after I did them I felt guilty, because I felt like I wasn't compelled to do them and that I'd just made myself and was faking it.

Masturbation is a better way to deal with it.

Yes I have this problem too. Today was a calm day as far as compulsions go and it does make me question my OCD. However, I've had this disorder long enough and had enough compulsions and issues that I know I really do have it and the doubting that I have it is part of the disorder.

Smiggles wrote:Masturbation is a better way to deal with it.

You're being serious? That sounds more like a coping mechanism which lots of people use to relieve stress but ultimately not fixing the issue. Not unlike drinking away your problems.

No, jdd. I'm joking, but masturbation is good for stress relief, no doubt about it.

Well of course. But the way I see it is just going to turn into a compulsion if you use it too often as relief.

jdd wrote:Well of course. But the way I see it is just going to turn into a compulsion if you use it too often as relief.

Little chance of that. I don't ever do it. I think it's because of my low self-esteem. I do watch porn though. Although this is a bit off topic.

livingwithocd16 wrote:Yes I have this problem too. Today was a calm day as far as compulsions go and it does make me question my OCD. However, I've had this disorder long enough and had enough compulsions and issues that I know I really do have it and the doubting that I have it is part of the disorder.

Thank you, yes I know the OCD is causing the doubt of OCD, but there is this block in my mind that if I don't do a compulsion then I'm fine. Unfortunately this is preventing me trying to get better.

Is it still a compulsion if performed as I suggested? So here the compulsion wasn't to do sit ups to punish myself for having this crush but to do them for reassurance that I have OCD?