Nobody has more bizzare ocd than this...

probably?

Hello,

New here. I've had ocd basically my entire life and really should get some in person professional help which I have not. However, there is no doubt whatsoever I have it. I know this from years of experience and every online test I take, I always score moderately high. I mostly manage it where I don't let it interfere with my normal activities, but it's currently on the verge again. I've gone through long periods of ocd flaring up bad and I had a hard time dealing with it to periods where it hardly manifests and I've successfully managed it. I'm thinking of seeking pro help maybe get some meds, but I know the true cure is my own actions and the meds are just helpers, not the cure.

Anyway, please allow me to share the most UNIQUE and CRAZY OCD I have, and please let me know if you've ever even heard of anything as BIZARRE as this:

I have a few different types of ocd, but the most difficult one is my "Leg OCD". This is an ocd obsession where the ocd demands I see female bare legs. (I'm a hetro man). This happens mostly (but not exclusively) when I see any nudity. Even just a photo of a nude person online will set it off and my ocd will demand I see female legs first after seeing the nudity. If I do, I feel closure and anxiety relief. If I don't and see male legs, it might mean I'm gay (which I'm clearly not-have no attraction to the same sex at all).

It flares up often after things, events, anything, I think or want to be the last time. For example, yesterday I went to a restaurant for lunch and had a negative experience with it where I wouldn't want to go back. Therefore, my ocd compelled me I needed to see female legs first. If I saw male's, I might have to go back to that restaurant anyway.

It's really bad in summer with all the short pants. More often than not, I'll "need" to see female legs last of the day, not a male's.

This can also flare up with things as simple as eating in a restaurant and I'll "have to" see female legs first (not male's) after finishing eating/drinking. Also, just walking out of a building in summer, I'll try to see female legs and will feel relief if I do, and a bit of anxiety if I see male legs.

This strongly occurs when I do something I really want to be for the last time, such as a self improvement goal. For example, I keep trying to not bad mouth others, but often still do (just not as much or as severe) so when I do, I catch myself and wanting that to be the last time, my LAST TIME PERFECT OCD demands I see female legs.

This isn't always in person, especially in winter. This can be just a picture or a on a video. For example, in a neighboring office at work there's a poster with a woman in a skirt and when I catch myself bad mouthing others in that office, I'll be sure to look at the female legs on that poster.

As NUTS as this sounds, it is completely true and I've struggled with this since at least 1993! Of all the ocd rituals I've read, I've never heard of anything even close to this. Have any of you??

thanks for reading what is,
Stuck In Me Crawe

Hello!

It's certainly unusual, but from what I know about OCD, it can affect literally anything and is very creative. I haven't heard of it before, but then I have OCD behaviours that I haven't heard anyone have.

Are you having any therapy?

I agree that it's pretty bizarre, but very characteristic of OCD.

Let me give you some advice though: stop all porn consumption. Not only is it an immoral industry, but it's particularly damaging for people with obsessive disorders like OCD or anxiety in general. I've found when I completely cut out all porn, after a few weeks my mind became much clearer and far less sexualized. I promise you, if you do this you will find your symptoms improve.

That doesn't mean it will fix everything, of course, but it will make you feel a lot better.

Hi and thank you.

No, no professional in person therapy but some self help for ocd so far which I want to do more of. I've had lots of other self help therapy.

I'm not even talking about porn here, just the random image, even just a picture on an album cover online, an avatar, classic paintings, anything. You know how stuff comes up online very innocently.

However, I did have the p thing in the past which I'm off of and yes that made the ocd hundreds of times worse. What is amazing to me is how the ocd seems worse now than it was then as then it pretty much manifested just then, and not so much at other times. Unless I just didn't realize it because the post p ocd was so intense.

It probably really doesn't matter what the specific thoughts are as ocd is an individual thing in content, it's just some are common with the washing, etc. It's about the false messages in the brain I need to learn to manage!

I'd be interested to hear your unheard of ocd manifestations.

Thanks much,
Stuck

Yeah, that is unusual. OCD can be about anything and I haven't seen that on here before! I suppose you'd deal with it like any other theme The psychologist said that she treats it pretty much the same for all themes.