People, i need urgent help with HOCD (Might trigger)

People, i just wanted to ask you how real can HOCD get? Because i don't know if what i am experiencing is wether real or not... I'm starting to think that i am actually liking all these thoughts, and actually want to be gay. That i would enjoy to be gay, and that i actually am in denial, since i like this thoughts... It is telling me that i find them arounsing to, and i'm finding hard to resist, but this only makes me panick even more!!! Someone, please help, i don't know if it is HOCD or not anymore... Need help

Dude, it gets as real as real gets.

Have you ever gotten the hots for a guy? Not maybe, not you're not sure... but the real live hots.

If it's the real deal, and you are Bi or Gay, then there's not going to be any doubt. In fact, I don't think you'd be posting here. I am Bi. And I had no doubt that I wanted a guy, when I wanted a guy. The only thing OCD might do to me, is tell my I'm all Gay and not Bi. All I need to do to cure that is watch some of my favorite women on YouTube. Pretty sure I'm not Gay. But I had no doubts, no oh no do I like guys? No. When I want a guy, I want a guy. You would know. I would say the vast majority of the time, no one who posts here in OCD is in any kind of denial. Unless they're denying they have OCD.

Thank you for the asnwers ;D... I was thinking of telling all of you my whole story with HOCD... It's kinda funny, because it all started because of my current girlfriend... the one that i have always loved and love so much since now... of that, i'm pretty sure. I always had a crush on her, since little, and always thought to myself, since i was acually 13 years old (Now i'm 16... actually, my birthday is tomorrow ), that she would be the girl that i would marry one day... and i'm still pretty sure of that... i'm recovering of HOCD, and i have a theory that i can recover and be hit by that disorder faster than anyone... i have HOCD for 1 month and all the symptoms are of people that actually had if for like 6 months or so... And then, when i "decide" to stop letting this thoughts prevent me from living and start to make fun of the thoughts and let them in, without confronting them, i start to feel better instantly, and start to remember the same old me, the person that i have always been and always liked to be... But then, the moments where i most feel like myself, that i most feel in heaven, enjoying life and feelling the profound and powerfull presence of life... is... actually... when i'm with my girlfriend... OCD tried to hit my in ROCD too, but then i actually looked at it, so disgusted and said to myself: "No, you hit me, but you are not gonna hit the people that i love... i won't let that happen, not today and not never... you won't do harm to anyone else than me"... Actually, my history with OCD (ROCD and HOCD) is pretty funny, because i actually had it 2 years ago, without knowing that it was actually a disorder, but it didn't bother me that much at that time, and it was just like intrusive thoughts that i regreted having,,, whithout the whole part of compulsive checking (only sometimes), and then, since it was not that painfull, it faded away within 2 months or so... but, this time, it came back with full power... But i'm not gonna let it beat me... I'm stronger than that and i will return to be that old me that i always liked and start to live life in the happiest way, like in the old times... I was the happiest person i always knew... and i will be this person again soon... I'm seeing a psychyatrist this saturday, so i think it will help me a lot... Hope it all passes in days or so and i return to be that guy i always have been. ;D

Dude, I was so into my obsession this weekend that I almost came out to my friends. Now I'm on the other side of it and am looking forward to meeting up with a girl this weekend. It seems SO convincing when you're in the thick of it, but when you're past it- feels like night and day, man.