Please help me :((

Hello.
I really need your help i don't know who to talk to...I feel really lonely and sad. This OCD thing is killing me and I'm scared that it will ruin my relationship too.
So here is the thing...I always get the urge to check my boyfriends browsing history or stuff he has on pc and I can't help it. If i don't do that i feel anxiety. I don't want to do that, i really don't but this is becoming stronger than me ((. Sometimes I cry cuz I can't help myself. Tomorrow i have to go to his place and i know i'll have urge to check something again...I REALLY DONT WANT TO. Please help me...how can i stop this?
Actually i am pretty scared of finding some stuff i don't want to see on his pc and that's why i always feel urge to dig. I want it to stop but this anxiaty is killing me . I really really love him and don't want to lose him but am also scared of what if he has something on pc i won't like etc. Don't get me wrong he is the best bf i could wish for, the problem is in me. He always gives me his pc even leaves me alone with it. Never had such trouble before and wasn't even thinking of sniffing around...but now I am really fighting.
How can i fight this.....I am typing this and literaly crying cuz i'm scared.

Hello, I might not be much help, but first of all, being aware of it being a problem is actually a really good thing. Since the anxiety spikes when you get an idea of looking through his stuff, maybe it would be helpful to instead of relieving the anxiety by checking, to try to relieve the anxiety through other methods (for example, mediation, taking a walk). This way, when you feel more calm, you are also able to think more rationally. Talking to a counsellor would probably be a good idea just to have someone to talk to, and they would probably give some good advice for this kind of situation. Relationships can be hard because there is so much uncertainty involved, but this uncertainty needs to be tolerated by being trusting of the other person (unless you have a valid reason to be untrusting - but even then, there are good and bad ways to deal with it). I'm sorry that you're in so much distress.